Bulletproof.

CheeseMcSpicy

2012-01-27T22:53:00.002+08:00

Supposed to be doing my projects right now but I don't have the mood to even start on it ): To make things worse, I don't even know what to do. Just feel like breaking down. Things have been going smooth yet not so good for me recently. Didn't do much visitings for Chinese New Year. Only went to Daddy's relatives house for visiting before coming over to Seng Kang. Have been dropping by Jera's place pretty recently off late too (:

Spending the night here again tonight because I came over with Chuin Wei and the deal was that if his MacBook Air has Microsoft Word, I'd borrow his laptop and I'd stay over at Jeremy's place. So yup, I lost the bet and he's leaving his MacBook with me for a couple of days :D Happy kid here! Hehehe.

Have been feeling really reluctant to go to school but know what? Project submission datelines are nearing. So are my exams :'(

Diet plan? Failed. Left with whole of February. Ggfied. Have been hooked onto LoL recently hehehe. Chuin Wei came over to Toa Payoh this morning to find me. Sweet boy came all the way to my doorstep even though I was sleeping so that he could accompany me and keep me awake so I'd get my things from Bedok to start on my project.

Introduced Nicholas and Chuin Wei my all time favorite Cheese Mac Spicy WITH A CHANGE OF BUN to Filet's steamed soft bun. Nomz~ Craving for it now though I didn't finish my burger earlier on. After eating my late lunch with the boys, we came over to Jera's place and they went home to play LoL with Jera......... Leaving me with a pile of project to clear and settle myself. Sad girl ):

Mass OTC Outing

2012-01-16T12:10:00.003+08:00

Have been staying at Toa Payoh recently and I don't even feel like going home to face anyone at Bedok. It's like a constant battle, draining me out mentally and physically. It doesn't even feel good to be back there. All I want to do is sleep away all the problems and not face anyone, when I'm there. How do you even call that a home, if all you want to do is avoid every single problem that comes into your way instead of facing it, and solving the issue? I really feel much better here and welcomed. Really grateful for the people I have around me. These babies are rare gems I don't know what have I done to deserve them but I'm really glad I've got them :')

Imagine waking up in the middle of your sleep, at 5.30 am on a Monday morning, feeling really annoyed of yourself, pathetic, useless. In short, in despair. So many thoughts and images flashing through your mind, you got lost in them and ended up drowning in your own tears. Who could I turn to, at such an unearthly hour of the day? And that was how I started my week. Best. The only person I could think of apart from Rachel was actually Shermaine. Because I've never told anybody else a single shit about my family issues, apart from them. Whatsapp-ed Shermaine for awhile before she prepared for school and Jeremy messaged me. Was really surprised but still..... Glad that I had someone else there too. I couldn't hold it back any longer and I just spilled the beans :/

I don't think I'm someone who'd keep everything to myself but neither am I someone who'd tell you every single problem I'm facing. Everyone is facing a tough battle in the same game against a different devil. I don't face just one problem. It's accumulated ones and though I do have my regrets, I just wanted to say...... I chose to leave because I just want to stay here, at Toa Payoh, where I have been quarrelling with my cousins since young up till now. I have so many reasons to leave and forget about everything but I still fight for that one reason... Because this is where I feel like I'm at home, and NOT alone.

Had dinner with The Clique (Mithio) on Tuesday night and it ended pretty late. Went to Sebas's dorm while waiting for my parents to come pick Julia and I up :) Instant KO as soon as I bathed and laid on my bed that night. Totally worn out. Wednesday was a short day I think? Ended school at about 3.15 if I didn't remember wrongly. Came to Toa Payoh to put my things and grab some stuff for Shermaine before meeting her at Town. Jazlyn and Shermaine accompanied me to Red Mango for yogurt before we walked to Taka to get some proper food. Came home at like eight plus and we just nua-ed the night away. Since Thursday's WDS was cancelled, it was a no school day for me. Met Rachel at ten plus in the night for Tau Huey and some heart-to-heart talks because I was feeling so forlorn that day and I kept crying....

Left her place at like 4 in the morning, came back home and slept until Thursday afternoon :) Had dinner with grandparents and Shermaine before coming back home to prepare. Left home at about eight and headed to school for Mithio's drinking session :) The only thing I could remember was I felt super cold that night despite wearing long sleeves, cardigan and jacket. I even drank while wearing all these! :/ My face including my eyes and ears turned awfully red after my first Yakult shot and most of them thought I was high or even drunk. Okay can.

Only managed to catch an hour of sleep on Friday morning before heading for lecture. Was pretty late because Jeremy and I kept nua-ing and we had a deal previously :b As long as I stayed over, he'd accompany me to Business school. It's a SUPER LONG walk from Temasek Green to Biz school okay :( So unfair.... Engineering and Design students lead such a good life if they take TNS. After much hesitation I decided to skip DBIS tutorial and EBM's lecture so I could nap for a short while. Met Clive and Jeremy while walking back to Sebas's dorm ^-^ Hehehe.

Everyone left at about 1.30, leaving only Jeremy and I alone so we just took our nap and left at 2.45 so I wouldn't be late for my lab lesson. Was feeling soooooo dead for the entire day. Met Rachel at Tampines to have dinner together at Ikea :) Both of us were basically sprouting nonsense from the time we met up till we parted ways. Felt like heaven when I laid on the sofa and slept for 2 hours. Forced myself to bathe and fell asleep again not long after that :x

Met FatFat at Orchard on Saturday for dinz together with his friend and girlfriend. Met Shermaine at Cine with her friends and coincidentally Jeremy was there too. Cabbed home at like ten plus because we were like walking zombies already :/ Took my things, waited for my parents to be back home and they sent me back to Toa Payoh :D

Had a Mass Outing yesterday at Sentosa. Reached there at like 2 pm because I woke up pretty late AND I had my fringe trimmed before going over :) Teehee. Had dinner together with The Clique and we all left at about ten thirty?

I promised I wouldn't leave anyone in the lurch.. But she pushed me away first and landed everyone into such a misery.

Most probably skipping Econs afterwards..... Tired. Some times I think it gets really tiring when you start falling for someone. You get so lost, you don't know what to do and at times it feels like you're just hoping for the impossible. I should get over and done with this. No time for such dilemma....... At times I wish I could turn back the time. It's okay if the past is way too back. Rewind back a little and let me forget what I'm facing for awhile is good enough too.. :')

Who can I turn to when I'm feeling lost and alone? When I need a listening ear, a shoulder to lean on, a hug to assure me that I'm safe?

Me-Thio-You

2012-01-07T18:01:00.003+08:00

Left with exactly two weeks to shop for my Chinese New Year clothing and honestly, I'm pretty thankful that I'm in Poly because this just means that I can only celebrate CNY on the first two days since the third day falls on a Wednesday and my first lesson starts at 11 :) From 11am to 4pm it's all important lessons since they are all tutorial so it all boils down to.... Compulsory attendance~

Ask me about my diet plan and I'd tell you.... I FAILED.... HAHAHAHA. What's new right?!?! Okok, Monday, promise. The next time I blog, I want to proudly say.... I MANAGED TO SUSTAIN IT FOR A WEEK... :'( Damn failure. Oops. Okay 'nuff said. NATO..... Must kick this.. Bad side of me. (^ ڡ ^)

Had Mithio dinner the other day. If I didn't remember wrongly it was just Wednesday! ^_^ Let me recall first....... Ok yes, it was Wednesday!! :D I had truckload of fun! :D I must say, this world is really super small! Through the 2 weeks mid-sem break, I found out that Marcus and I had a lot of things in common and on Wednesday I found out MORE! I never knew 2 of my empire mates were his classmates! Good thing for me though hehehe :b Makes me feel closer to Cheryl Yee, in a way ;) I had brunch with Marcus that day and he accompanied me to photocopy the 3 books I borrowed from the school's library for the Research section of my Web Design project. Thanks yar Brother! ^-^ Met Para after I was done and we went to Student Lounge to meet the rest. Went to Mushroom at 6 plus and waited for the empire to come at 7!

Had KFC together with Daryl and Cheryl that night. Played Sardine at ITAS after our dinz. Can't get any better! Heheheh. Luckily we were not the last group to find the hiders for the two rounds or else we'd have to face the music. Forfeit :/ We all left school at like 1145 pm that night? Pretty late but every minute spent together was all worth it.

Met Gavin on Thursday since he came over for the Open House with his friends. Managed to submit my WDS Proposal with Vincent so we could rot our day at home on Friday. EBM and DBIS were cancelled so Friday was left with Micro lecture in the morning, 2 hours break followed by EBM lecture. So the lazy us decided that we should just rush and submit our project on Thursday so we could have a long weekend instead :D

Didn't do anything yesterday and today except rotting at home and I had 13 hours of sleep from last night until today. This is heavenly. HAHAHA. Okay, I've got nothing to do now :(

Hopefully the study plan Julia and I came up with for every Thursday wouldn't fail~ Micro and Macro, LET'S GO!

First Post, New Year

2012-01-02T22:50:00.005+08:00

Hiiiiiiiiiiii :)

My words always never turn into action :( But yes weight loss is still going to remain as my New Year Resolution so fingers crossed that I'd be able to achieve this goal by March. Two months from now........................ Let's go! Bound to achieve it yar? Okay final say, plan starts from 8th January I shall prove my actions through results by 8th March. JUST WAIT!!!!! REALLY :

I think last year passed by really quickly and there were a lot of changes. As usual, more disappointments than making people proud of me. Made use of the trust they had in me, time and again, letting them down like never before.

In this post I'd like to apologize to my brother-in-law and sister. I don't know how to face them anymore and all I can say is I'm really sorry for all that I've done. Because honestly without the both of you I wouldn't be here today, nor would I be who I am now. Thank you for giving me the final chance, that once chance, to be able to be back with all of you and also know Keeven. It was really the best time and Keeven was really the greatest gift from God. I miss him sooo much and he's like the brightest star in the sky. No others would ever beat this shining star. May your business and things sail smoothly for you this year.

I guess I've learned a lot last year. Be it through the books or experience and honestly, through words I can never express enough gratitude towards my brother-in-law or sister. My life itself, isn't even to repay all the things they've done and sacrificed for me. They are like the ones who found me, gave me hope, taught me, provided me love, shelter, care and warmth.

I thank many others for entering my life and staying. The old has to go for the new to come, yes? So it's time for me to let go of the past but not forget about the memories, values and lessons learnt. It's time to welcome this year whole-heartedly and anticipate what may be in store for me.

There's like so many things on my head, on my mind, I really can't put them in order and list them out. To sum it up it's just the usual family, friends, relationship, studies, goals and ambitions.

I have an ambition and a goal. JieJie I just want you to know like what I've told you before it still remains the same I still hope to have a dessert cafe of my own in the near future :) I know I've let you down but I guess this is just me.

Years down the road when I look at this blog, this post, I hope I remember all the hurt I've inflicted to everyone around me even my closest kin. The day I left, that image etched in my mind. Filled with regrets but I would rather use that energy to pray and believe that it will get better. With or without me, it definitely will :')

So back to what I was saying before......... 2 months to reach my goal... Ahhh :'( Seemingly impossible but I believe with discipline I'd be able to achieve it yar? Mmmmm...... I'd take this bet. 2 months is actually very long so how is it possible to fail!? Something must be wrong if it doesn't work out. Okay, we shall see the results on March!! 'Nuff said. Actually I'm just trying to convince myself : But then no amount of words would be sufficient or persuasive I suppose because results is the best evidence so.... Yupyup.

School starts tomorrow and it reminds me of days back in Secondary school or even, Primary school. That thousand and one reluctance to attend school tomorrow but I still have to face reality. The incessant complaints and wish to own a time machine so I can return to school quickly instead of rotting at home YET when the time comes, I'm already counting down to my next long holidays. The fear and dread to face the start of school once more because of the countless projects each module gives. But all these aside.... Five weeks of hell to tolerate and it'll be over. ALL OVER. Five weeks to rush all my projects AND really put my heart into studying while seeing progress in my dieting... Yes, let's go! :D For the sake of maintaining my results, proving my worth, being back to who I was, getting my old self back. By March, yesyes it's not going to be a dream and I will not allow this dream to drift further away. It shall become reality again. Definitely before my 18th............. Teehee.

Thanksgiving

2011-12-28T00:22:00.003+08:00

HELLOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO :D

Just came back from OTC not long ago and I'm still having post-camp-blues :( I miss Mithio pretty much and I've been sleeping so much of late ever since I came back from camp on Friday night :x My empire name sounds dope right ^-^ Teehee. We weren't the best empire but I believe each and everyone of us had a fun, enjoyable time with one another's presence (L)

Felt pretty awkward on Day 1 since I knew nobody but everyone opened up to one another quickly, thankfully. Come to think of it.... I can't quite remember what we did on that day :/ But on Day 2 which is Thursday, we had our performance night and..... NIGHT WALK! What's camp without night walk right!? Waited quite long for our turn since we had to enter by groups but I had my fair share of fun! :D Was super scared but I refused to get a light stick and insisted on joining in...... :/ Feels more thrilling that way! Since we had to be in a group of mixed genders, I grouped with Para and Yuan Kai. Honestly, Para is the dopest Indian I know.

Me: Eh Para you see!! That Guru person blacker than you, can fight sia!
Him: Fuck, don't compare me with Indians. I fucking hate Indians.
Me: Don't lie to me lah! You Indian leh bro!

Him: I serious, I not Indian, I'm mixed blood.

HAHAHAHA honestly this boy........ Super joke!! I kept telling Yuan Kai and Para "How ah?! I scared I scared but I still want go!" Para then told me.... "Don't need scared, I stand behind you and Yuan Kai then I shout Mithio cheers ok? I help you scare the ghost. Later they thought really got ghost because they cannot see me" OK CAN! He's really sooooooooo dark and he wore an orange shirt. Those striking orange y'know!? I kept telling him if the lights are off I'd be seeing a floating shirt instead and he continued my joke with me. Awwww :b

Four levels of "haunted classrooms" to walk through and I had to go through one stage alone. Super grateful to Yuan Kai and Para because I grabbed their hands reallyyyyyyyy tightly especially when one of the wanderer grabbed my legs :/

Water games on the last day. Dope dope dope! It was really fun despite the rain ;) Debrief ended really late so I left at 9 odd since my parents waited for me outside for an hour already. Have no idea how I survived Friday without any sleep on Thursday night and I instantly knocked out after I took a clean bath at home that night. Felt like heaven.

Since then, sleep has never been enough for me. Sadly. But I definitely won't regret the experience I got from OTC :)

Celebrated Christmas at my grandparents' place and spent Boxing Day at my third aunt's place :D

Time to lose weight. Back to like before Poly started. MUST. I WILL I CAN I WILLLLLL :) 2 months, GO GO GO let's go~

Happy Birthday, JieJie.

Neverland

2011-11-27T20:37:00.002+08:00

Boring Sunday spent at home today. The only fruitful thing I've done over the weekends is that I completed two projects yesterday and it took me about four hours, while I was watching the television :/ Nevertheless, glad that I finished my Research for Web Design so all I'm left with is my sketches now! :D Was so preoccupied that I didn't even notice the time at all!

I finally realized that it was 27th November when it was around 12.30 am so I sent Daddy a happy birthday message and checked the OTC results on TPSU's blog. Honestly, it kind of surprised me that I was selected because I went for the interview with Abigail and I didn't even expect to be chosen :( Maybe they only picked one out of four people they interviewed so Abby couldn't be part of us. Luckily those who didn't get chosen are going for the appeal session this Friday so I wouldn't exactly feel alone! ^-^

Having the intentions of backing out now though because.... I really can't cope. I honestly can't. Then there's Standard Chartered event which BSC is involved in and Smile-A-Wish...... Can I just back out, pretty please?

Mission starts tomorrow! :D

My twitter has been unprivate for quite a couple of months now so.. Catch me there if you find my blog left untouched, again.

You Don't Know You're Beautiful

2011-11-26T18:22:00.004+08:00

How long has it been since I last blogged..... Hehehe. Not exactly busy to the extent that I couldn't come online and do a simple post. I just.... Don't know what to blog about. There isn't anything new at all? :/ Like any other random days, since I first started this blog.... I lead a life that has nothing different from anyone else. I fall in and out of love, I get my knees scratched and pick myself up, I binge a lot, I make mistakes, I learn, I cry, I regret and I wish.

Let me talk about school........

I think I really like my school. I honestly like Temasek Poly. Although I usually have this feeling that I belong elsewhere during lessons, I can never deny I'm starting to like my class. This may be a little too late but I don't look forward to a change of class. I don't wish to part with my classmates. The noisy ones, the quiet ones, the mischievous ones, the caring ones. Really wonder how would I cope in class next semester. Then again, it's okay! There's still a couple of months to go... .Teehee.

I really don't know how am I ever going to cope this semester though. Five modules of project, six modules of papers to sit for this mid-semester test, gym and some volunteer work regarding BSC. I really have no idea how to survive this semester..... :(

How to reach my goal by January at this rate? :(

Mission starts from Monday! A brand new week, brand new day. Keeping my fingers crossed one month would be enough.... Please :( :( :(

I must studyyyyyyyyyyy..... :'( I hope my wishes come true. Pleaseeeeeee. I will abstain meat and be vegetarian for two weeks. I promise! Y'know you can count on me for that and I'd get your back. Always. Hopefully Yishun wouldn't be an empty word.

Footloose

2011-11-09T20:50:00.004+08:00

Do you believe I was this tall when I was between 4-5? :/ Yes I stopped growing since 12 -_-

School has started for quite some time right now and like I've mentioned before... The projects are actually piling up :/ Things are not getting anywhere better nor easier and the lazy me is making things worse by.... Skipping my lectures. Hehehe. It's really a burden to attend a lecture at 4 pm which ends in the evening, 6 pm, after a 3 hours break!! Y'know how tempting it is to just head home or elsewhere to enjoy your day and never return to school until the next day? :x

Yup, I tried staying in school yesterday but gave up halfway. Got my GongCha and Mushroom Fritters at Bedok before heading to Town to meet Shermaine. Had dinz together and we intended to walk to *Scape for her GongCha but that ass insisted that Cineleisure was near Far East Plaza. Two opposite ends oh my this kid ah... So we ended up walking to Lido, where I stopped her and told her she is bringing me to the wrong place. Walked past Shaw House and.........

We went up to catch Footloose! :D :D :D The movie was at 7.15 and we got the tickets at 7 ^_^ Initially we even thought we went to the wrong theatre because hall 8 was sooooo empty! I'd rate it 4.5/5! Cliche but I still love the storyline. I like mushy-sweet-romantic-fantasy type of stories hehehee.

School is... Mehhhhh~

Projects have already started. No, I'm sooo unprepared for Web Design! Sigh. But I am still holding on to the faith and will work hard for my GPA. Got to snap some pictures soon and start on my sketches~ Oh wells.

Randomly while we were walking home, Mummy was saying she should go find a gym for us. But no matter what I'd persuade her to let me join even if she backs out. Teehee. I hope everything remains. The bad has changed for the good. The luck still remains. May everything get better.

And most importantly, please do take a detour.. And come back. I miss you. I'm sorry I couldn't keep to my promise either. I can't let you go and not ask why. I can't let you go and not plead you to be back. I can't let you go.... And let it all poof just like that.

After Twists And Turns

2011-10-20T23:57:00.004+08:00

How time flies, today is finally Thursday. Previously I was anticipating today soooooo much because I couldn't wait to get my time-table. But now, NO I REGRET I WANT TO SUE THE CREATOR OF MY TIME-TABLE!!!!! :( Really. Hahahaha okay I was just kidding! My time-table isn't that bad! Previous semester it was pretty relaxing though now it seems to be packed, I know I'm going to pull through this stage. I won't just scrape through this semester. I'd do even better than just good. I WILL :D If you don't click on the image and I tell you that I end school at 6 every day. Boy, that sucks I know.

BUT NOOO THAT DOESN'T WHEN YOU KNOW THE TRUTH ^_^v

Five days a week: Thursday is the best because it's 11-1 :) Remaining four is divided to 2 days 9-6 and another 2 would be 11-6. I know, whutttttttt?! 9-6 that is sanity! But I have a minimum of one hour break before every lesson be it lab, tutorial or lecture -_- Totally redundant right!! I think they don't like my class because we always sneak to Cheers in between lessons so now they give us break before every lesson. Want to late also cannot! :x

Last three days to enjoy and I'm going to work at the National Museum tomorrow :) Looking forward to the next three weekends because I got a job at a pet shop~ I get to play with all the cute little angelic dogs :D I believe it'd be a greaaaaat time for me because what's better than having the chance to play with all these cute stuff! Totally my heaven! (L)

After moving to Bedok, I feel like a caged bird. I don't know this place at all! Thank god for Tim~ Since he lives sooooo near me I'd have a "live guide" plus a companion to make me study when our mid-sem tests plus final exams approach. Plus points for having someone of the same course as me staying nearby ^^ And I'd most probably be able to work with him next weekends at the pet shop!! Hehehehehe!

At times, I come to this blog having soooo much to say but I guess I got accustomed to the habit of bottling it up once more. Whether I let it or not, does it still matter? :) Carpe diem.

It never was easy letting go of you. You're the first thing on my mind when I wake up, and the last thing on my mind which I can recall before dozing off. Always had, always have, always will. But I guess it's time I stop living in my fantasy. Can no longer retrieve back anything which we had. Remember the first time I scribbled all over your arms and you gladly allowed me to "vandalize" on your poor arms? Remember how we communicated through your blog's draft posts? Remember the Thursday breakfasts we agreed to have? Remember how you used to wake up soooo early just to pick me up, have breakfast with me, send me to school, get some nap then wait for me outside my school to send me home? Remember how you used to hold my hands tightly as we crossed the road because you said I'm careless? Remember how you got angry when I was angry? Remember how you got upset and angry when people made use of me? Remember how you said you'd always be there to protect me? Remember how you said... "Can I save your name as babygirl?" Remember how you said I was rude when I replied "I love you" instead of "I love you too"? Remember how I insisted that your tattoos were pokemon when I first caught a glimpse of it? Remember how I messed up your multi-colored hair? Remember how you'd walk me home and make sure I enter my house safely before you leave no matter how late it is? Well I remember.

I remember everything in my heart, in my mind. It's all etched there, my dear. I tried recalling how upset I felt. I tried recalling the bad moments. But you were just too good to be true. Everything about you was just so perfect, there's nothing for me to even be unhappy about. It was just me.

我喜欢的人有一双小小的眼睛，表面上看起来很单纯，但是个性却很倔强。脾气不好，容易生气又傻傻的，让别人总是忍不住特别想要照顾他，爱护他。Remember this too?

你是我的幸福

2011-10-12T23:54:00.002+08:00

Work at Sanrio has come to an end so now it's time to enjoy the last few days of my holiday before I have to face my endless project and pressure from the modules I'd have to take up for next semester. Stuck with this for three months and I believe I can do it! :D Hehehe. It's gonna be a breeze, I hope with my fingers crossed!

Enjoyed my work pretty much because of the jokers and the part-timers there were really nice! Sweet pies~ Hehe. Moving out of this place soon and I honestly wouldn't bear to. Will definitely miss times like this morning whereby my Uncle woke up and came into the room to talk to me. We watched the television together and shared secrets. Really just between us, we spoke our minds. And still feeling pretty welcomed here because they were telling me how I could just come back and stay over too hehe.

But everything is really, really in a mess at the same time. I'd really love to hear you telling me, "Don't worry, you won't have to face all these yourself anymore. I will never let you stand alone," once more. But nope everything ended pretty long ago :) The feelings just came back once more and I realized it never did left but I'd move along :)

Sanrio

2011-10-01T00:03:00.004+08:00

Currently busy with work since I got myself a job at the recent Sanrio fair. Pretty tiring due to the long hours but I really do enjoy everything. Hehe. Well, I'm paid the same as the promoters/store boys and I got to do is just sit at the redemption counter, help customers and make sure I don't mess up :b How could I possibly not like my role!? Lalala~

Went to MBS this Monday and it was a pretty good experience especially with the company I had :) Checked out on Tuesday and slept as soon as I got home :x Started work on Wednesday until today. Off on Monday but most probably heading to Town with Rachel. Come down to Taka B1 for Hello Kitty fair!!! :D Hehehe. There's Kuromi, Melody, Little Twin Stars, Hello Kitty and etc! Super nice things! Some of the items are overpriced while so are reasonably cheap ^_^ Teehee.

I think the Sanrio full-timers are reallyyyyy nice and sweet. Not to mention, my partner and the people around me at work are really jokers too. Heh! I'm closer to the boys since the redemption counter is near the store while the girls are located further away :( It's okay though hehe! Alpheus, Edwin and Joshua forever damn disturbing one!

Doubt I'd ever be able to get my hands on all the things I want now :( Boohoos. So many many many things down the wishlist............ Money I earn is barely enough!

I managed to get Psychology cluster!! :D :D :D :D :D Most probably trying my luck on Japanese for the compulsory CDS next sem :)

Never Dying Rapport

2011-09-22T22:22:00.004+08:00

Planned to watch Johnny English Reborn together with the cousins few days ago! ^_^ Was pretty excited and looking forward to today because we've all been talking about going out together and whatnot since eons ago but we finally put our words into actions this time round! :D :D :D Used to daydream and fantasize together, living in our own dreamland, talking about anything and everything in the kitchen (under the lights, fans, ceiling) hahahahahahahahaha :b

It's a pretty bad thing to have three girls, especially teenagers, living in the same house and going out together. HA! We planned to meet at 3 today so Shermaine went to prepare at 1, followed by Lavinia at 1.15 then finally me at 1.30! I was finally done at 2.15 in fact :x Imagine if we cousins really lived under one roof and we have a date together or happen to meet people at the same time. If we're meeting someone at 1, I think that poor soul can wait until sunset!!! While preparing I was taking my own sweet time.... Walking in and out of the rooms. It's really difficult when there's 3 mirrors in the house apart from the one in the bathroom and only 1 is "usable" okayyy :( Lavinia and Shermaine kept saying "This princess...... (blahblahblah)" hehehe :x This is why my cousins are always so sweet giving in to me muahahahaha :B

The super anxious spider Lavinia immediately left home as soon as I was done! We were meeting the boys at Plaza Singapura, at 3 and we left home at 2.15!? It was pretty early when we reached the MRT station so I asked if we could take the next train and Lavinia snapped "NO! Take this train" oh my goddddd why my cousin like that one!?! Shermaine and I couldn't stand her promptness HAHAHA. So we ended up waiting for the boys T_T

Gavin, Jera and Shermaine actually skipped school today...... LOLLOL! So sweet right just for the cousins' date. Muahahaha. Had lunch at Pastamania, walked to Cathay to get our tickets before buying Gongcha, getting our complimentary drinks and some snacks ^^ I'd rate JER 4/5 hehe not too bad! Although it's a comedy I got shocked twice :/

Lavinia left after the movie so the four of us continued walking. Sweetest pills, accompanied me to Scape just to get sports bra~ Hehehe! We went to H&M and I bought a bag too :D Sweet boys helped me to carry my bags and accompanied the girls to shop though we did window shop with them too! :) Settled our dinner at Cine for Pepper Lunch before we walked around again and...... Four of us got the same glow-in-the-dark wristlet!! Hehehe, I like!! Parted our ways after that since Jera has SS paper for tomorrow so yup. More outings to come for us cousins, definitely! Love their company and these boys are such a dear ;)

Time seems to have countless hidden wings. We've been together for at least sixteen years already. The tears we've shed, quarrels we've had, laughter we've shared, pains we caused, it all remain as part of each other's memory and I'd gladly say, I'm so proud and ecstatic to have you sweet pies as my cousin, my family. A place called home. I love all of you! Can't believe we've all grown up so much :')

AND I'M SO DEPRESSED!!! Before I bathed today, I walked to the kitchen happily and exclaimed "I won't look like a shorty today because I'm gonna wear my heels :D HEHEHE!!" then Lavinia told me "I also wearing, HAHAHAHAHAHAH" and I immediately went *-_-* "okay...." like I was thrown down back to reality........ And Shermaine kept saying I'm very short :( Why they so mean one.... But it's okay. I STILL LOVE THEM (L) :* HAHAHAH. Fun-filled day, peals of laughter everywhere we went.

Diploma Plus Prog

2011-09-20T22:54:00.002+08:00

Some people said that my results were really good. But to be honest, I find it just average. I expected more from my MacroEcons, probably that's the reason why I wasn't that contented with my rather mediocre grades. In fact for a 1.1 student, it's pretty much expected..... In my honest opinion.

But in any case, I was one of the top 10% in my course for this cohort so I was invited to a talk about Diploma Plus Program. It's about having the privilege to graduate with an additional certificate on top of my 3-years diploma of my current course. In order to graduate and complete any course, it is compulsory to take up a minimum of 3 CDS (elective modules). For this DPP, I'd take up an extra 4 CDS so instead of the usual 3, I'd have 7. It comes in a cluster, and there's a few choices for me.

Today I decided to give it a try because I thought that I should give myself a try. Although it'd mean more workload but then again, hey, it is to my advantage if I'm able to do well. Not everybody is given the chance. So I was wavering between placing Psychology Fundamentals or Cross-Cultural Studies as my first choice. DPP is a cluster of CDS meaning PF would include 4 Psychology related CDS and the same applies for CSS. After much hesitant, I decided to choose Psychology before Cross-Cultural.

CSS seems really fun and attractive, honestly. But Psychology is interesting to me too.... :( Oh wells, thankfully I have another 3 compulsory CDS to take up so I'd try my luck and keep my fingers crossed that I'd be able to pick the studies of Japanese language as one of my CDS! Hopefully global citizenship or transnational studies too ^_^

Anticipated today so badly. But everything got screwed up. Nothing is going right. It's not just the accustomed "bad-to-worse" phase right now. It's beyond description. I don't want to give in, but I don't bear to leave you in the lurch either.

看着你这样，我无法袖手旁观。江山难改，本性难移。这句话说得一点也没错。好马不吃回头草。为什么你总是一错再错？我们怎样才能让你不要越陷越深？回来吧，回头是岸。。。心事重重，真不知道该如何帮你。

0.10 More

2011-09-16T11:39:00.005+08:00

After the long wait........ I finally received my results at 11:14 am this morning and it was updated onto the system at 11:30! :D :D :D Super excited to receive my results and honestly, it is waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaay better than what I've expected! As you can see, my GPA is 3.71! ^_^

Nevertheless that aside, I'm pretty disappointed with my Econs :( I was expecting a grade A. In fact, I actually secured an A for it already but my final exams just had to pull it down...... To a B+ :'( But it's okay :D Comm Skills and CTOS results were way beyond my expectations! Hehehe. Besides, I got confused during my Econs paper and mingled up most of the things. No confidence for the paper in fact. What a waste, indeed. But it's always like that, yadahyadah.

Determined to make it btr next sem. M-U-S-T!

Metamorphic

2011-09-10T11:30:00.002+08:00

I like the new cheesy shaker fries Macs offer right now ^_^ Hehe. The Horlicks McFlurry/Milkshake is nice too. Baked rainbow cupcakes again on Wednesday but it didn't turn out to be as sweet as before. Not too bad though because the older people were able to enjoy it :P The sweetness was just right for them :B Might be baking them again on Monday, teehee.

Results for my Final Exams out this coming Friday. Praying I'd be able to secure a GPA of 3.5 and above but naaaaaah, no way now man. Sigh. It's okay, I didn't persevere.

MBS Hotel with Rachel on 26th, hehehe!

Ideal Garden

2011-09-07T23:01:00.003+08:00

My final exams ended quite some time back and I'm having holidays till 23 October.... Hmmmmmmm.... Hahahahahah :b Impromptu dates recently but it's mostly with Rachel for a meal ^_^ Feels like before. Heh. Haven't been doing any spectacular or whatnot recently either actually. Met my Darling Girl on Monday for a meal and we walked around Bugis before she headed to CCK while I met some Magnus people to celebrate Nic's belated birthday till Shermaine came to look for me at V8 :D Had dinner at Ajisen before we shopped around and spent a bomb hahahaha oops :/

Yesterday was a stay-home day for us while Shua came over today and we helped him with the baking of rainbow cupcakes. I miss the sunshine peopleeeeee. The cheeky one.

Dependent

2011-09-02T18:54:00.003+08:00

My new phone. My current phone. And yes this is how it looks like :) Say goodbye to my iPhone and honestly I do miss it... Because of the apps that I bought previously and the emoji that was available for me to name my contacts! :( Boohoos. But it's okay. I used my Sony Ericcson (595? 995?) for a year before changing to iPhone 4. No, I didn't request for that phone actually. Ha. My mum just got it one fine day and gave it to me so it was pretty much a surprise.

Some time during this period, next year, I'd get my hands on iPhone 5. With Rachel, probably? ^_^Let's wait till then! Hehehe. Went IT fair with my uncle yesterday and we saw Rachel, Xinying and Wei Jun! Might be going again on Thursday since we need to get our MicroSD(HC?) memory cards :D

Add me on your BBM! 2809866A

9900

2011-08-29T23:07:00.005+08:00

Ordered my BlackBerry 9900 today and yup I'd be getting it on Thursday!! ^_^ Supaaaaaaaaa excited hehehee I'm gonna miss my iPhone because of all the apps especially my games but it's okie :D I'd still stick to my choice and use BB hehe. iPhone 5? Yes I'd definitely get my hands on it. Probably next June? :) See how by then~ Would definitely stick to my BB until next June, MINIMALLY! Hehehe.

BA paper today and it was pretty manageable :D MCQ questions were tricky but other than that it was alright!

OTF last episode today and I'm catching my last episode of Love Keeps Going too... :'(

And sometimes you just wish you could be that exception too. In wtv it is.

So relieved because I met up my Darling Girl today and talked about almost everything. Of course some things no matter how much you wish and pray, it'd never change. And we all know no matter how much effort we put in, how we try to say and all, everything.......... Remains. So yup there's also some things I didn't bother saying. Glad that the girl listened to some things which are....... More difficult to let anyone else know.

700th Post

2011-08-28T21:47:00.002+08:00

BA paper tmrw but I'm in a holiday mood.................. Went to the temple at Bugis the other day and I got some rather good lots for studies and life :) Baked rainbow cupcakes and it turned out a success.. Heh! Tried another recipe the next day but wasn't as nice :( Shall try again another time :)

Gonna change away my iPhone to BlackBerry 9900!! ^_^ Since iPhone 5 isn't coming out so soon yet so I shall just get my long awaited BB :D Shall decide again next year or something for iPhone 5. Depends~ :D

Final Exams

2011-08-27T12:10:00.002+08:00

First final exam paper yesterday and I'd say it was pretty alright. System Analysis... But I dare not say I'd definitely score for this paper. The use-case model was a tough nut to crack and.... I gave away some marks for my use case narrative :( Oh wells. Yes, I went in unprepared. Totally in the holiday mood already thanks to study week. Boohoos. Hopefully I'd still be able to maintain an A for this module... :(

Because I didn't do well for the Online Networking test for CTOS previously due to a lack of practice and stuff so I got a C+ for it.... And now, my CTOS is stuck at a grade of B/B+ :( :( :( Definitely no A for Comm Skills so there's no way I can maintain a GPA of 3.6 and above anymore. Sighhhhhh.

Then again, how can I possibly let such trivial (okay it's not that trivial actually......... Seriously) matters affect me right!! I got to just swallow it up and try to achieve my goal for sem 1.2! Yup yup :)

One Big Family

2011-08-07T22:26:00.003+08:00

To be very honest... I'm super super lazy to continue my 30 days challenge!! :( :( :( Sorry Hun, I'd continue it another day okay!! Just wait for the post~ Hehehehe. Did I mention I was away for my BSC camp the other weekend? I kind of forgot when was it but if my memory didn't fail me, it was last weekends! :D

I HAD HEAPS OF FUN THEREEEEEEE!!!! #BSCLove ^_^

Still not over the camp mood yet, teehee. Magnus, Magnum, DotA, Helm of Iron Will, as good as gold :) Muahahahahaha!

Macro Econs project was due last week and glad that my group managed to rush out everything though our presentation on Friday was obviously unprepared :) Well, AT LEAST ONE PROJECT DOWN!!!

SAS project due soon and I'm glad I finished ALL MY PARTS, today :D :D :D On top of which, I even completed my eHomework for SAS which is due by this Friday! Kudos to me. Feel super contented because it's one burden down once more.

Exams are coming and no it's not a good sign... At all.. Comm Skills final exam this coming Saturday, CTOS final exam on 16th August which is about Networking.. Ah... Sucks. Comm Skills presentation on 15th August. Study week following up after that week then it'd be the start of my final exams already! So fast!

Good thing about Poly? Though every day/week/month/semester is filled with projects/presentations.... Holidays seem to come really quickly ^_^ Have been spamming Twitter of late with my lovely sub comms & main comms, hehehe (L)

Met Joshua today like finally after sooooooooooooooo long!! Totally agreed that it felt great being who we are once more. Just being ourselves :) Every time I'm out with Junyan or Shua, when I'm tired, I know I can just rest on them. I'm not alone. Physically, mentally. Super looking forward to my holidays!

It was pretty fun staying back helping out last week for the upcoming National Day Celebration with BSC people too....... Though tiring. Hehehehehe #magnuslove #bsclove :D :D :D Happy pills!

Time For A Change

2011-07-25T21:51:00.003+08:00

I'm in a super good mood right not because.......... I just finished my Business Accounting class test earlier on!! :D Though the paper started really really late (7.30 pm) but it turned out pretty well ^_^ Managed to do the whole paper but..... The stupid hesitant me again made minor mistakes!! Sigh. Oh well, this makes me learn, no? Can't be dwelling over it so.. Hakuna matata! Hehehe. 15% of overall grades, yup but...... I really will do something about it for my main examination which is coming right up!! :) Went in the exam venue unprepared, yet again. Boohoos.

Having my main exams at the end of next month :( No time to waste anymore but no this isn't getting in my head at all~ Sigh. Ultimate goal is just to get an A for my module. Don't have to be top 10% in my cohort. Just want to live in my own world, compete against myself and stay in my comfort zone for as long as I can. Nothing else matters :D Though Junyan has been telling me that I must move out. I've got to get my ass out of my own world and stuffs but..... Now isn't the right time yet. Maybe next year, maybe next semester, maybe next month. I don't know. But not now, not so soon. Let's see how it goes next semester, then :)

Didn't have a good sleep at all last night. Kept waking up every single hour and I felt really uneasy. I have no idea why either but I went to bed feeling troubled. Was horribly preoccupied and I didn't know what was on my mind.. At all :( Jumped up from a really bad dream at 4.25 am and it was raining heavily. Felt really negative towards school today but glad Shua and Kelly were there to comfort me :) It did turn out pretty well though. Whether it's because they had to do it or not, I'm still glad a conversation struck up.. For that few seconds :')

Love Keeps Going episode 8 is out!! WOOOOOOOO~

Daddy picked me up after my paper because I called him and complained about how late my paper will end :x Teehee. After my paper, I saw a message from daddy and the text was... "I'm near by your school take yr time"

!!!! Why my Daddy so cute!??!?!?! Hahahahahahahaah!! BSC camp this Friday.. Upcoming weeks seem too packed to catch CA and Twisted with Junyan :( :( :( That mean ass is leaving for US during Nov.... :(

Movie Marathon

2011-07-24T17:07:00.004+08:00

Haven't been blogging much recently once more because there's nothing spectacular happening recently :x I've got no idea what should I talk about because every day is just another mundane passing day, nearer to the end of the week, closer to another new month. Really looking forward to the holidays and not go to school. I don't know why. Feeling dreadful now; sick of all the continuous problem. Being maligned always. Maybe it's just us. Two people of the identical temper, how could friction not exist? Ha :)

As the title states... Movie Marathon! Caught two movies with Junyan yesterday!! :D Though I lead the same routine every day, what makes it special is the lovely sweet pies around me ^_^ Before all these, on Friday there was BSC briefing in the evening so I bought Gong Cha before heading back to school for Xinying and Heng Yong :) Went to E-Hub with Xinying after the briefing to wait for her boyfriend together and they sent me home (L) Camp next week from Friday-Sunday! 72 hours of camp, kind of looking forward! :b

Went to Bishan to meet JY for movies yesterday. Bought my Gong Cha first before we caught Wu Xia :D I'd give it a 5/5!! Super nice movie please do watch it or catch it online if you don't want to go through the hassle of buying tickets and have to save money alright!! I'd definitely wait for it to be uploaded online and watch it once more, no doubt!! Hehehehe. Kept grabbing JY because some parts were gruesome and I got shocked hahahahaha okay what's new between us anyway! He tickles me and I pinch him :/ Hehe. Had dinner at Watami since we had some time and couldn't go far. Virgin dining there! Wanted to give it a try because Kelly works there and I kept telling her I'd find her at Raffles City/Ion/Central next time if there's a chance :x But well, my girl wasn't working yesterday so we gave it a try anyway ^.^ Not too bad and reasonably priced! Teehee.

Looking forward to holidays during September because there's many plans coming right up!! Going to have a meal at Watami with Rachel one day when Kelly is working, during the holidays!!! Wooooo~ Love my sweet pies always giving in to me and my requests. Just like when I disappointed Kelly, she still spoke to me nicely and told me she's just upset then everything was settled (L) Love you all!!!

Alright shall not veer away from the story. So, after our dinner we bought drinks at 7-11 and JY shuffled in front of a small boy and the boy went O_O because he was trying to mimick that mean ass, HAHAHA!! It was damn funny the whole scenario you just had to see it yourself. He was winking at us and trying to copy JY until that mean ass shuffled. Lost.

Caught Harry Potter and I was already falling asleep so I just rested on JY throughout the whole movie muahahaha~ My Darling Girl was prawning at Bishan but it was already pretty late so JY sent me back home instead. Shall meet up some time soon ok~ (L) Hehehe.

So many many more movies I wanna watch :( Boohoo!! But it's okay. Captain America and Twisted up next with JY ^_^ Hehe!! I know you must be thinking why always JY or Joshua right. Because like I've mentioned, they are the best brothers of mine!! :) :D :b Hehehe. Shua is on a saving spree so it's left with JY and I~ Rise of the Planet of the Apes seems nice too :( Why so many nice movies recently!! But I've got to grab every single opportunity and chance because JY would be going to US..... Soon, I suppose? He knows his flight details already but he's keeping mum and insist to not let me know :( :( :( Yet.. For now. Oh yes, Final Destination 5 and Smurfs too!! Hope FD5 wouldn't be a let-down like FD4!

Here Without You

2011-07-17T23:23:00.002+08:00

Can't wait for the days to pass by faster, can't wait for time to tick by quicker, can't wait for what I want to hear become what I heard. Just want to get over all these, avoid these, have things the way I'm wanting it to be.

Skyped with Junyan last night and played two matches of DotA with him. Mean ass, since when would I not laugh till I feel so worn out when it's just the two of us. Heh! Gonna catch Harry Potter with him :D Of course that's not all. There's also Captain America and Wu Xia. In return he'd accompany me for Smurfs ^.^ And we're both aiming Final Destination too. Hehehehe!

Realized that recently I've been telling Junyan and Shua things that I bottle up. I'd rather tell them randomly than blog it out or twit about it in a round about way. Love how they'd always protect me, care for me, advice me and of course...... Love them, for who they are.

Pampered Little Girl

2011-07-15T20:21:00.003+08:00

After so long...... One more project is finally down! :D After weeks of struggle and hard work the report for Comm Skills was finally completed, compiled and submitted today. One less burden, one more thing to rejoice about ;) Heh. Have nothing to comment about school anymore. Mundane routine, always. Same problems; nothing more to talk about.

Had mediation talk today and to be honest.....I still have no idea what it was about. Like reallyyyyyy. Went for BSC's interview the other day. Hope it's a success! Still wondering if I should go for BITIG's interview on Tuesday and try my luck? Boooo :(

Met Junyan today because I was rather sad for the past few days so he said he'd bring me for pizza ^.^ But after much hesitation we had sushi again :x So he picked me up at Tampines and we went to Nihon Mura at Punggol Plaza :D Couldn't stop laughing but that mean ass kept forcing me to eat non-stop also lorh! Tsktsk. But after he leaves for US I wouldn't have such privileges anymore so must really cherish every moment he pampers me :x Teehee.

Heng Yong accompanied me for awhile before Junyan picked me up too :) Sweet boys! Hehehe. Life's good because no matter what problems I may have, there'd always be these sweet pies around me to pick me up and light up the pavement for me. Nobody will bring me down this way.

And if you do see this honey, HAPPY SEVENTEENTH BIRTHDAY TO YOU KELLY SNG! I LOVE YOU :) Told you this for quite a couple of times but really, thank you for everything you've been doing and done for me. For instance, trying to not leave me alone though you ditched me twice :( Heheheh :b Though you're younger than me by months and everything, truth is, I'm more like the little girl when it's just the both of us. I'm not sure about your other friends out there but I know in this class, I'm that one girl you're always giving in to, and trying to understand to make it better for me.. And us :') 我爱你!

Will do a post on day four of the challenge tomorrow or something ^.^

Line of Fear

2011-07-13T22:54:00.003+08:00

Never good enough. Never contented. Never understood. Never sympathized. Words coming out from Shua and JY.. Nothing but sweet talks but the only difference is they meant every word they said... To me. (L) Two best friends as my brother; the luckiest part of me. The best thing anyone can ever ask for :')

Lost

2011-07-12T22:17:00.000+08:00

I could see it in your eyes

the look as if your hero fell and lost his soul

All the little things she said to me

Were broken thoughts and tainted dreams

If she can't take these memories

It doesn't change a thing

Every little word she said to me

That broke my heart and stayed with me

I wish that she could hear me scream

#3 Drugs and Alcohol

2011-07-11T20:46:00.002+08:00

Though I don't quite open up everything, I'm proud to say I have Junyan and Joshua who understands me. Glad that I made four people proud of me. I miss Mr Cheng. I miss his teachings. I miss Physics lessons. I miss school. I miss being naive. I miss being a kid.

(Continuation of Day 03 Challenge - Should be posted on 11 July but I saved it as draft because I didn't have the mood to continue)

Day o3 - Your views on drugs and alcohol

Actually.. I don't really have any views on these two.. I take neither of them and I have friends who take them. All I can say is, I think it's just part and parcel of our lives? Some people are more rebellious.. Some likes to take up challenges.. Some just want to have an experience.. But well, what can we say but respect their decision if they choose not to heed our advices? I find it redundant for us to leave our friends just because they don't heed your advices. Shouldn't friends stay by one another? They may not need you now.. But if they really mean a lot to you.. You'd stay and appear when they need you. The most. So I always believe that we shouldn't stereotype..

By atypical. Stop following the crowd :) Maybe people want to take drugs just because they think it's okay. Then so be it. What can we say or do? Please, don't give up on them. They always deserve another chance. As for alcohol.. I guess it's perfectly alright? Just don't go over the limits. Anything is alright, as long as it's within your capability.

Autobots and Decepticons

2011-07-10T21:34:00.004+08:00

After the long wait..... I FINALLY CAUGHT TRANSFORMERS 3!!! Woohoo~ Dark side of the moon ^.^ Booked tickets in advance and luckily we didn't wait till today else getting good seats would be out of the question! Heh. Was late in meeting Junyan and Joshua because I insisted on blowing my hair so that I could tie it due to the scorching weather. Because of that, I threw tantrums and gave them an attitude because they kept blaming me jokingly :( Sorry (L) You two know I still love you a lot!! :D The other day Ashique also told me that after knowing me, I gave him the impression that I'm superrrrrr pampered and treated like a princess.... LOL??? And he's not the first. Those people who are really close to me feels the same too. All the time :/ Like, I'm not exactly that pampered and all but they feel that I'm the most princess-sy girl. Hehe :x

Went to Kopitiam for lunch, bought my Gong Cha and finally collected tickets at Cathay :) Waited for Nicholas and his friend before we caught the movie...... In 3D!!! Wooooooo~ 5/5 for the whole show! Mad love (L) (L) (L) Hehe.

Had dinner at Ka Ru, beside Fruit Paradise at PS before we parted while Nic and his friend left before the meal :) Walked around PS with Shua then came back homeeee ^.^

Harry Potter next with Junyan!!! And there's a Marvel movie coming soon too..... SHIOK!!! Busy weeks coming right up. Sigh.

"Getting my hopes up high, the expectation is snowballing. I'm afraid of the great disappointment" :( I hope it's gonna be alright by Sept. Really. Please pray for me too! :(

Have been repeating for a gazillion times but it's true. Really thankful and grateful. Love having Junyan and Joshua by my side. My priorities. I love them more than anyone else. Maybe because they'd always put up with me. They insist on me doing things, for my own good. Nothing else. They dote on me and make an effort to let things go my way. They are always here when I stumble; they are like my guardian angels. Quietly standing behind me, following me everywhere I go, silently guiding me through life. Two brothers who stepped in my life, and hasn't given up so far. We're so close to the extent that many mistook us as a couple when I'm out alone with either or something. But well, we know it best ourselves, so it's okay :)

Down The Road

2011-07-06T22:58:00.003+08:00

Day 02 - Where you'd like to be in 10 years.

Honestly this is a tough question for me because... I've got no goals in life so I have no idea where I'd like to be ten years later. Guess I'd say... I hope I'd like to be in someone's life, making an impact... Getting married by then.. Leading a life.. With real happiness. No resentment. No grudges. Whether it's simple or not, it doesn't matter. Days that I'd wake up to knowing someone is there for me and going to bed without fearing I'd wake up to another emotional day.

Thirty Days Challenge

2011-07-05T19:19:00.002+08:00

Came across this on Tumblr yesterday and decided to save this image just so that I'd be able to refer back and take up this challenge :) Since I haven't been blogging of late and I always run out of ideas due to the inconsistent blogging... This would be a good way to keep my blog alive.. For at least the upcoming 30 posts :D Of course I'd occasionally go out of the topic and talk about my day/week/month..... If I have the urge to, like now ^.^

Day 01 - Your current relationship, if single discuss how single life is.

Well basically.... Single life of course has its ups and downs just like any other relationship :) But for someone like me who constantly needs someone to rely on.. A dependent me... Someone who fears being alone... It definitely isn't fun at all. Since when was it nice to be all alone? The life I'm facing now.. Filled with problems all bottled up with nobody to turn to at all.. It's too horrifying to be nice. But all these aside, it's also a really good chance to see who'd never fail you. The ones who'd be there to pick you up. Always. The ones who'd never keep a distance from you just because many others are mistaking them and you.

Yes, the ones I hold dearly to me right now are none other than Joshua and Junyan. Well, why not? It's not because we have a thing for each other... Yes in a way we have a thing for each other.. But not the relationship kind. You know there's always this person you're so close with be it girl or boy... Someone you know you'd never fall for yet almost inseparable? That's probably the best description I can think of.

Single life leaves me in fear of waking up to every single day. It breaks me down. It makes me harbor hatred. It makes me lose faith. It leaves me in despair. But single life brought me two angels.. Of course, There's also Shawn!! :D How could I ever forget that Brother who has been doting on me since I was 13?! :b With these three listening ears.. I'm more than contented. Why is it all boys? Think I'm cheap, it's okay. They know me best, they know me inside out, they can read between my lines, they know what am I up to. There's no need to hide and there isn't even a single thing I do which can escape their eyes. I'm just lucky that instead of one best friend which is a boy, I have three. Three older brothers who dote on me.

My take between best friend and brothers are... When I see someone as my sister/brother, they are MORE than JUST a FRIEND. It's like they are part of me, part of my life. Like they co-exist in my blood. A friend.... Or best friend... There's still this wall or perhaps really thin, fine line.

Guess this is life? I can't possibly have everything going my way.. So I'm going to continue keeping my fingers crossed that everything would be alright... Soon. Please?.. In a blink of an eye, it's already July. Sem tests would be commencing on end of August.. Approximately a month from now. How fast. Six weeks long of holiday starts from September. Please let everything be settled before that.... Please! :(

Streak

2011-07-04T18:10:00.004+08:00

Really happy with my results right now. Got back SAS today. Not top but still managed to get an A :) Like I've said... God has been really really good to me. Lady Luck never stopped shining on me and I'm grateful for that. Promise I won't repeat this anymore. I'd never enter the exam venue unprepared after this lesson. Not all modules overall grades are A but happy enough now because at least for the mid-sem tests itself, I scored an A. Hehehe :D

Transformers 3 this Sunday with the boys (L) Weeeeee~

Life has been in a mess. But how bad could it be with two sweet brothers doting on me, giving in to me yet worrying that I'd be over pampered? Never fail to make me laugh and being mean for the better of me. Like how JY forces me to drink 2 litres of mineral water everyday. For at least these five months before he leave for US. Teehee.

Actually it's impossible for me to deny how lucky am I right now. It's true that I'm a pampered girl at home. But hey, there's a limit, ok? I'm not that ill-bred brat you see on the streets. I know my limits and I honestly think I'm considered good enough already. But life is EVEN BETTER right now with Junyan and Joshua. They are the first two I'd always share my news with. Be it happy, angry or sad. You may think that I'm making use of them but sorry you're neither of us three. You've no idea what are the things we share or talk about so just shut your trap. Thanks :) So grateful for them because I'm the type who just wanna let it out. I'm tired of bottling everything up. And they are always there. During the darkest times, Junyan would always light it up with one sweet message. Like I've said, things between us are as simple as it is. Yet ironically not that simple too. Hehehehe. Not everything or everyone gets close... With motive. There are genuine people around.. They proved it to me (L)

The Shine to My Sun

2011-06-30T21:35:00.003+08:00

Decided to blog today because.......... I received my results for CTOS and Business Accounting today!! Really happy with them even though it could have been way better. A good start for me though :) Sad to say, components such as group projects pulled it down but well... Like what Shua and JY have been telling me. What's done cannot be undone so just continue doing better. Got an A for both my papers (Mid-Sem itself excluding other components) and my results were the top in class! ^.^ Not top in the whole course but God has been far too nice. Really. I certainly do not deserve such luck and wonderful grades because I didn't even care about my tests during my exam week. I basically skype-d with Shua and we played DotA..... *Guilty moment*

Things haven't been going smoothly for me of late but yup, suck it up and live with it.

Met Junyan and Shua on Sunday with their DotA clique because I owed JY Koi :( But he fetched us for Tian Ji Zou after that!!!! :D :D :D Just like he promised~ Teehee. JY came Tamp to fetch me again yesterday to meet Shua at RP :) Every time I meet these two monsters, I'd be dead beat by the time the sun sets. Cannot stop laughing!! :b

Can't wait for Transformers 3 date with them! ^.^

Caught Lion King Musical @ MBS on Tuesday with Peony. Super touching play and it is definitely worth the money so please do get the tickets if you have not!! ^^ Hakuna Matata.

So Much...

2011-06-21T23:06:00.004+08:00

I thought I was special to you. I thought what you talked to me about and shared with me was special. I thought it was just between us. I thought what we had was special. I thought we were special. But I guess all that I thought was wrong. I never did cross your mind. I wish it isn't what I'm thinking it is to be right now because I cant stop thinking about it right now.. Like, for real.... :(

Met Junyan and Joshua yesterday :) Had dinner together at Sembawang before JY sent me back home. Did CTOS again today but with Kelly this time round and we're completing it soooooon. Short of the blog post right now! Teehee. Feels good to meet my girl after so long. Had cup noodles and talked till about 5.30 before I left school and talked to Josh on phone. JY came to pick me up and we had sushi at Punggol Plaza :)

Term Break

2011-06-18T13:57:00.004+08:00

Finally, the term break is here though it's just a short two weeks but it's still a good time to finally have a break from everything. Heh. Life has been pretty good recently and I thank Lord I have Joshua around. Without him, I wouldn't be able to pick myself up and smile so readily, so quickly, every single time I drop a tear. Because without Josh, I wouldn't know Junyan and co., I wouldn't have my life filled with wonderful people like them. Of course, they are not the only ones. I still have many others to thank for, like Peony, Kelly and etc! (L) Hehe.

Have been playing DotA recently with Tianran and Joshua. Super epic moments even if we lose. WWE, what you expect! :P

Please show me, please tell me, it's former over the latter. Something would happen. Sigh. I don't know what to say here anymore and even on Twitter. I may spam twits but it's usually out of topic. Well, I'd twit about my emotions if Shua and JY are sleeping though because they're the only two jokers who really, really must get fouled. ALWAYS. HAHAHAH.

Read some horoscope things with Shua last night. All those little facts and details are nothing short from accuracy most of the time! I'm not being thick-skined okayyyyyyy. Shua said it really describes me too :B Heh. Here's some of the many which we both agreed.

1. sensitive and possesses a sunny disposition and a positive outlook

2. prompt feelings of love and protectiveness from friends (So true!!! I feel super loved and protected when friends care :$)

3. impatience with people who worship the dollar

4. will sacrifice to make a cherished dream come true

5. capacity for sympathy and her understanding make her stand out

6. often prefer a fairy tale scenario to the real thing

7. know their vulnerabilities and are sometimes afraid the magic "bubble" will burst

8. individual who is deeply in love may sacrifice themselves for their lover

9. may seem weak or unfocused, they are sympathetic listeners. They have strong links to the past and are likely to keep the same friends for years

By the way, Shua and I are of the same horoscope....... So we're pretty similar. Not just because we are Pisces. Our perception and all, in one way or another! Just saying :) Teehee.

Mid-Sem Tests

2011-06-07T22:07:00.002+08:00

Glad that everything has somehow gone back to normal. At least I know it's no longer THAT awkward for us though in a way or so, it's like nothing changed and neither of us said anything. Not better than before, but better than last week for sure :)

Econs paper today was a breeze and glad I was able to do it with a smile :D Hehehe. Shouldn't be a problem passing this paper. SAS tomorrow followed by CTOS the day after. Nothing done, no hopes, no expectations. Feeling so tired and giddy right now.

I guess even that little bit is gone.

该是时候长大了

2011-06-05T23:06:00.003+08:00

How time flies! It's already Sunday, and in less than an hour it's gonna be Monday officially. First paper starts on Tuesday and I'm pretty prepared for it since it's Macro Econs. SAS, CTOS followed by BA respectively. Have so little time left for SAS and CTOS yet I'm not even worried for it. This is what's worrying. I'm not even prepared and I know nuts about it, yet it doesn't even bother me. Sigh. It's really that difficult to sit down and revise when it comes to these two modules. It kills me literally. It just doesn't make sense. I study five chapters and dump all the information into my brain but on the day of the exam, less than 50% of what I stored in my brain is going to be unloaded. So..... Doesn't it sound wiser for me to attempt the test papers and then narrow down the scope of what I should be focusing on? Okay I'd get started on it tomorrow. HAHA.

Did all the Econs test papers yesterday and I am proud of myself for doing so :D Hehe. Noticed a pattern and pretty prepared for it. At least I know the format for Econs now so I'm less worried. Shouldn't be a problem passing the paper. Keeping my fingers crossed and I hope this faith isn't complacency. Joshua and Jericks dropped by for awhile at around five I think? They left at about six and I met them again at eight ^.^ Josh came to pick me up then we went to Woodlands to fetch Jericks and we had our dinner at Yishun. Went back Woodlands to pick Josh's friend who was leaving for Taiwan. Went to Changi Airport and stayed there for quite long because her flight was 1 am and we met another of their friend, Kai. After Adeline checked in we decided to have supper at Balestier so Josh drove us there for Bak Kut Teh!!! :D

Was planning to have Rochor Beancurd after supper for dessert but while we were driving over, Josh's friend called so we went to Orchard Plaza to pick him up. Headed back to Balestier only to find the shop closing :( So we had to make our way down to Geylang for the beancurd. Tsktsk. At least it's 24 hours there so we had our tao huey and you tiao there! :D :D :D Dropped Jericks at his place since he was living just across the road then Josh, Alex and I continued our "mission - travelling around Singapore (route to Punggol to be exact)" from Geylang. Kept laughing on the car while Josh told me about their camp jokes. All about Alex. LOL!!!! Secrets I have to carry to my grave now, bff sia! LOL! Finally reached Punggol at four am in the morning and ko-ed till four noon today.

Sometimes I really wish I could change some things that's happening now. Or maybe ultimately. I just wish I didn't have to make a choice that exists because of this broken family.

I was on cloud nine, knowing that I'm one of the person you'd turn to. No words could ever describe this feeling, knowing that I'm still remembered.

Something About You

2011-06-03T22:59:00.002+08:00

I'm beaming from ear to ear right now not because it's sunshine after rain, not because I've put aside everything, not because I've given up. I'm feeling much better right now because I just hung up the line with Rachel!! :D It's been ages since we last talked on phone, be it just a random phone call, a random chat on MSN or a webcam session. I haven't exactly gotten over everything that I've been through this week. I'm still torn apart, I'm still in despair, I'm still swallowing my tears, I'm still faking a smile through the days.

All these aside, I'd be lying blatantly if I said I know nobody actually cares how I'm feeling. Because I know every single day in school, I have my sweet girl worried for me, wanting to see me smile finally tell her for once, "I've come to terms with it. I'm going to just live with it, move on, and may they realize that they were wrong for judging me." I'm sorry, but I can't do it. As much as I'd love to... Nevertheless, I'd still tell you...

You know the positions four of you hold in my heart. You know how irreplaceable are the four of you. You know how impossible it is for me to say or act like I don't give a shit to any of you. But it's time I stop stooping lowly, falling further into this endless pit. I'm going to be myself. May their conscience return to them one day, may they be enlightened out of the blue, may guilt strike them, may they be reminded of me one day. And the thought that's gonna run through their mind shall be... "I think the decision we made was wrong. I think we shouldn't even have thought about putting up our guards. I think we shouldn't even have thought Joey is bad. Wait. Why am I even thinking? Why am I even regretting my decision or having second thoughts now? Wasn't I persistent that we should be going separate ways?"

I'm not saying I'm the best, I'm not saying I'm an angel, I'm not saying I am flawless. But at the very least, I can assure you that if you go around asking, nobody else would agree or even tell you that I'm those despicable person who backstabs behind your back. Who complains to a teacher that you're a sleeping partner, behind you. Because from the bottom of my heart. What in the world, do I gain?

Three days left, to stuff 10 chapters of knowledge into my pea brain. I wish I had more interest in CTOS and SAS. Because I'm so into these modules right now to the extent that I just have to THINK about them, and I'd yawn. The next moment, you'd be hearing my endless whines about how sleepy I am and how desperate am I to sleep. I'm not kidding you.

Talk about school. Talk about life. The only sentence I have for myself, and to sum everything up would be. My faith is wearing thin as I'm losing hope but come what may, life goes on; one step at a time. This is officially the worst week of the year. A new beginning, a new month? So much for new. Let's just forget it.

Mistaken, Do You Know....

2011-06-01T20:39:00.003+08:00

What would I gain, putting any of you down? What would I gain, maligning all of you? Especially the three of you... Out of four......

How does it feel, to have people putting their guards up against you? People, who mean pretty much to you. People, whom you hang out with all the time. People, whom everyone else know you're close with. People, whom you'd never expect to have a day like this happen with. How does it feel, to be mistaken badly yet nothing you say changes the outcome? How does it feel, to be judged wrongly, when the truth is just that simple? How does it feel, to be backstabbed by a girl you thought you could trust. A girl, you chose to let go of all grudges and have a fresh beginning with. A girl, you sincerely wanted to treasure. A girl, you always try your best to make things work for her. A girl, who masks her true colours so well and have everyone else deceived.

Backstabbing? Betrayal? Hypocrite? Right in your face. How have I backstabbed any of you? So getting caught with tears in my eyes by the tutor and she suspecting immediately boils down to me, lodging a complaint, behind all of your backs? Sorry to say, I'm having my fair share of personal issues right now. Sorry to burst your bubble, I am THIS weak, THIS fragile, THIS childish, THIS stupid. I cry over the slightest thing, I hide my tears, I fake a smile, I pull it through, I don't say anything out. Believe it or not, it's true. Nothing but the truth. The tutor was concerned, I answered her with my eyes filled with tears and I was in tears since trying to hail a cab to school. BUT the fact remains. I NEVER mentioned about anyone being a sleeping partner, NOR did I try to sabotage anybody or speak about the (unfair) distribution of work in the group. I never said anyone was dumping everything to me. Else, why do I want to bother speaking up for the three of you? Why do I even bother helping, caring your views, try my best, for the three of you? Why do I even bother apologising when I wasn't even at fault to begin with? Why do I even try so hard, to clear the air, only to have this wall of defense built up against me, for nothing I've done? I was running a high fever, deeply affected by what's happening, and may I ask if any of you took this into consideration? You want to keep your distances, I can't say anything to stop you. But I'm telling you right now. NONE of you are right. At all.

That aside, this doesn't mean that I have not complained at all. I don't deny, I did whine. I whined to LinQuan, I whined to Kelly, I whined to Tiffany. But what was I truly unhappy about? Are you sure I said you were all sleeping partners? Just so you know. I told the three of them the same things and that is... Ultimately, what made me upset the most is that I really needed someone to help me for the Sales Forecast worksheets. Yes I know those were easy, it's just keying in data, facts and figures. But can you not admit it's the most time consuming part too? I'm not saying none of you want to share my burden but you dare say you're unaware that I "discuss" with Quan before dividing any workload and wasn't it a mutual agreement that one of the member wasn't reliable? Nobody expected the SF to be so tedious. I've got to admit, not only did Quan underestimated this project. I did too. I've been whining consistently to Quan that he needs to let you all do things. Not just him or I. But he said we could just settle it ourselves. So be it. My fault, now? Okay then. I was unhappy about the SF, but I've already gotten over it. Just saying. Did I say you guys were stupid, useless, of no help, or whatnot?

What have I done wrong? Let's re-track, and go back to that day once more. What went wrong? Me, seen in tears, by the tutor. Then she found it weird and grew suspicious. The "truth revealed". 3 out of 4 of you matters the most to me in this class. And the three of you, sorry, went wrong this time round. I bore no grudges against any of you, I wasn't resentful, I didn't even complain about any of you. When I said I'm unhappy because I had to do so much for the SF. I didn't even mention any names. I knew who hasn't even done anything. I tried asking him to do. None of you heard, his answer to me. You all just stood by him blindly.

Especially you. When I said you joined us later, I really meant it. I never did blame you for anything but I was grateful for you've continuously offered me help, telling me you feel bad. Back then, we were seriously left with just P&L and charts. I knew we were lacking of data for the P&L. Even I was lost, I didn't know what to do. Right from the start, the sheets are designed as to how LinQuan requested because he already had an idea and I could find the formats. Tell me, how could I dump the job to any of you? If as a leader, I didn't even know what to do, I got lost, I knew the reason and only cause is because we have yet to collect sufficient data and we were still in the midst of thinking how things should be like because LinQuan understood the allocation of marks better and his macro was catered to fit into the worksheets nicely. Could I just tell any of you, "___, you do the P&L. I want it by ____." Could I be so selfish? I'd just be ridiculously unreasonable.

Or did one of you hear tales from some fox, and the rest followed suit, into believing the beautiful lie weaved by the wolf in sheep's clothing? :) Just saying........ None of you have yet to see the side of her she's still hiding now. Except Kelly and I. You people don't know what she is capable of.

Don't let me know how you feel of me when I've been trying hard to convince myself that it's my one-sided feelings. Don't let me know the feelings were mutual then you just walk off, doubting me, just when I successfully held onto the belief that we were a clique and you're just a good friend of mine just like how nice you are to me. Don't leave me in the lurch and push me away just like this, if I really do matter. Because if it's true, then you'd have trusted me. Again, what do I gain, trying to put any of you down? Especially... You.

CCN Day

2011-05-22T22:56:00.003+08:00

Left: My two lover girls (Kelly and Tiffany) with Ashique at the back.

Nicholas on the left while Vincent on the right :) Thank you, two nice boys! :D

The weekends are gone so quickly once againnnnn :( Last week was a really hectic week. Headed to Town with the boys on Wednesday after school because Vincent wanted to get his stud and we had our dinner there too :) Pretty nice hanging out with them and seeing another side of them which I'd never known. Hehe :D Okay I really cannot recall what I did for last week but on Friday we had CCN day ^.^ My class sold marshmallow, cakes, waffles and cookies. Glad that we managed to clear everything in the end! Hehehehe. Made profits and had some fun too (L) Oh yes yes, and for the whole of last week, my voice was SUPER annoying. It was irritating at its highest level.

I officially lost my voice since Wednesday and I got back my voice only today. But nope, I've not completely recovered from my sore throat :/ It's still hoarse and all but definitely, way better now. The boys planned to go prawning during midnight too on Friday since everyone is nocturnal in this class. Okay not really everyone but generally. Took a nap as soon as I got home and woke up at about ten to drink the can of coke my brother in law's mother heated up for me, with salt :) Went to bathe and coincidentally, Nicholas messaged me after I was done. Waited for him to come before I went down. Hehehehe. I had no clue who was turning up until we reached the venue because they had a change of plans so Nicholas came to Punggol to pick me up while Vincent covered the whole East side - Green line :P Oh and he picked Linquan up at AMK too :x Teehee. Since Nicholas wasn't familiar with this area at all, we got lost for damnnnnnn long. Hahahahahahahahah. Finally found the other group in the end and saw Tiffany! ^.^ So in the end it was Nicholas, Vincent, Tiffany, Linquan, Jeff, Jeff's friend (Shane) and I :D Somehow they decided to not prawn and so we went to Chai Chee for karaoke.

$8 for a fixed timing of 3 hours and we left after that. Vincent sent Jeff and Shane back before sending me back that night :) Yup that's all! Hahaha. Super thankful to Nicholas for coming to pick me up and Vincent for sending me back! :D Like they'd never complain about the distance or trouble when they plan any "outing" during midnight and would just readily say okay! Hehe :D Starting to mix around with more people and this class is really getting more and more adorable hehehehe :P

Bonding Night

2011-05-17T15:35:00.003+08:00

I can't close up the gap anymore but you're the one I have my eyes on; I can keep trying to find a chance, but it wouldn't go back......

If not for Vesak Day, I wouldn't have realized the last time I blogged was last Monday :x I can't really recall what I did last week because honestly, it's just the same routine everyday. No matter how I try to describe my day or make it sound amazing, I'd still seem like a fool trying too hard. It's just lectures, tutorials and/or lab for the different modules everyday with breaks and at times, inside jokes or cold jokes to lift up the atmosphere :) Hehe. I'm glad that I'm starting to know my class a little better now and I thank God I have them as my classmates. One whole lovable bunch of girls and boys (L) Hehe.

Fell sick since Thursday last week. Was down with fever, headache, cough, sore throat and flu. Super grateful to Kelly for being there and she was so concerned :/ Thanks dear ^.^ You really made life so much more fun for me in class and I look forward to school with you :b Teehee. Didn't help to open shop on Friday since I was sick but had to stay back with my group for a discussion for CTOS project. Left school at five plus because Kelly's group stayed back too so I waited for her while the boys in my group went off first :) Opened shop on Saturday because my fever subsided by Friday and closed rather late. Hehe ^^

Told Kelvin KorKor that I had to bring my phone to Com Centre on Sunday because my power button had some problems :/ Went to Town with Kelvin KorKor, JieJie and Keeven since I had to service my phone and I managed to get a 1-for-1 exchange for my iPhone since it was still under warranty ^.^ Hehehehe. Had our lunch there after I was done since it was pretty late already and breakfast was superrrrr long ago at home. Walked around and bought Keeven's Mickey Mouse Clubhouse disc from HMV before we settled for dinner at Food Republic :)

Met Kelly in the morning yesterday at Tampines Interchange and took 23 to school together :D Almost everyone in class seemed really steam yesterday. There was this sleepy aura no matter what module it was and we were all feeling giddy, coughing and/or having sore throat. Ha! Took a bus back with Rosamund and oh yes, I've been meeting her in school recently, coincidentally!! ^.^Hehe super fated! Woke up at around nine last night and watched tv for awhile before I went to bathe. Prepared and waited for Vincent to come pick me up :P We met Linquan at AMK's drive thru Macs since it was nearer to his place and did our CTOS there :D Pathetic Macs didn't have any power supply so we couldn't do much....... :(

At least we came up with a sales forecast worksheet sample though! Hehe :x Better than having nothing to show the tutor on Thursday right :P Most probably staying back tomorrow to see if we can come up with more things or not too :) And it's also because Sean didn't join us yesterday so we'd have to stay back in school together to let him know what we're doing. Sigh. But I'm really surprised and happy because I never expected us to have so much of ideas for CTOS. Just us three - Vincent, Linquan and I. We were sharing all our ideas and it's nothing fanciful or detailed but we managed to share our viewpoints and agreed with each other :D Can't expect to be the best group with the best presentation and all but this group allowed me to bond with them more which is a good thing too! :D Though we're the only ones meeting up at midnight and I was literally a sick zombie :/ Oh and Nicholas joined us last night too since he drives! :D

Finally had the chance to eat after we finished with our Sales Forecast for three months :D Had some talks for awhile until it was about four before Vincent sent me back :) Hehe. He's quite a safety driver :x Never judge a book by its cover, indeed. HAHA! Simple night simple talks simple people :)

My voice sounds super weird now. Or rather, since last night :( Tsk!! Don't like how some people contradicts their words completely with their actions. But well, it's your life, honey :) What can I say?

I just hope things would be fine for me, and in fact, better. Should totally have more bonding with the boys! Super jokers when they really open up! :D All of us have our similarities and countless of differences but we have to embrace all flaws, remembering what God made us to be. Accept life as it is :D Would be having another project coming up soon. Econs. So hectic because there's group project for every single module! :( Keeping my fingers crossed that Econs project would turn out well.

Final Clash

2011-05-09T23:45:00.002+08:00

I wake up every morning rushing and praying that bus 69 wouldn't be packed but as much as I hope, I always end up boarding the 9 am bus. I'd always be late for my lessons that start at 9 without fail :x Which means I'm late everyday, except Tuesday :/ Haven't been able to sleep well recently and I don't know why either :( Less than eight hours of sleep and I always jump up in the middle of the night, struggling to get back to dreamland. Sigh...

Headed to Tampines Mall with the boys, together with Kelly and Tiffany (L) But the girls left first to look for their footwear for tomorrow while I accompanied the boys to G2000 since Wei Chong and Nigel had to get their formal shirt. They shopped around a little and since most of us were hungry, we had our late lunch/early dinner :) Went Century Square to get WC's shoes before I topped up my EZ-Link card and took a bus back to school together. We were the last group to enter the LT :/ Hehe.

Watched some video then placed our bags in the classroom before we started our Orientation Final Clash ^.^ Everything was fun! Talked a little more to the girls and as usual, bonded with the boys! Hahaha. But I think our class was the most enthusiastic one ^.^ Hehehe. Must admit the boys were super gentleman because there was this station we had to pair up (opposite gender) and bite on a Pocky biscuit then walk to the other end together, with the pocky in our mouth before picking up a candy in a plate of flour with our mouths. Yesssss, all the boys did it! :D :D :D Hehehe. Final activity was water bomb and I think our class super anyhow please! Hahahaha. The boys anyhow whack only! Four pails weren't enough for all our water bombs! Had quite some fun together and I got super wet, again. At the second station, Joey (Hahahah yes my SL has the same name as me!) poured a whole bucket of water on me because she was drenched from head to toe before she tackled others :( During the water bomb session, Nigel burst a bomb above my head. Ass!

Nevertheless, I had my fair share of fun and I really love the boys who were present at the Final Crash today and not forgetting, the girls too!! :D Hehe. Of course I love my two babies of E06 more :x Teehee. But it was an unforgettable experience and a nice memory with Aaron, Ashique, Leo, Nigel, Wei Wen, Wei Chong, Diyana, Shazleen, QiQi, Melissa and Mindy! :D Did I left anyone out? Hope not :x Hehehe. We had a lot of cheers and it was super fun! :x Troll maximum with the Mat accent siol~ Hahahahaha. Mat day huh! :) SOB students, what do you expect! We have a Mat cheer and must always bring out the Malay blood in us! HAHAHAHA.

There's 2 videos uploaded on my Facebook and you really MUST watch them. The Malaysian girl who was bullied (First one) is a MUST. Where is their conscience. Seriously. F**k! AND, this just happened few days back. What. The. Heck?!

Formal wear tomorrow and glad that the tutor said my dress is perfect :/ I won't have to match it with a blazer :D But I'd still be getting it though, for future purposes. Ashique said it looks better with a blazer ^^ But I suppose it'd be too formal so I'm giving it a miss this time round, teehee.

It isn't easy. It never was. But I should have been prepared. Judge, it's okay. First, I got to stop stereotyping before I comment on others and crystal clear conscience, I'm unafraid.

Formal Outfit

2011-05-08T11:52:00.003+08:00

More pictures below :)

Have not been blogging for days again because I don't know how should I go about starting my post and.... My life is just a mundane cycle which doesn't change every week! :( Ended school earlier on Friday, as usual since it was Tutorial :D Went to Simei and had lunch before opening the shop :) It was a really bad day and I think I looked horrible when I broke down in school, in front of the boys especially, due to accumulated problems. Nevertheless, they were sweet and nice as always! So thankful for everyone in E06!! (L)

Was feeling so miserable and helpless for the whole day :x Met Si Hwee at night though :D :D :D Super thankful because I could let everything out to someone, face to face. Equally grateful to those who spent hours talking to me through the phone ^.^

Closed shop at about six yesterday and took a cab over to City Square Mall to look for my sister and brother-in-law :) Had dinner at Nanxing :) Walked around and came back home. Struggled with CTOS online quiz and blog post last night. Luckily Joshua was around to help me!!!! :/ Hehehe. Asshole, keep telling me, "RP taught us to use the web to search for answers" ._. Miss those times we'd conference till wee hours of the day! :(

Woke up early today despite turning in late and played with Keeven until now :b Hehehe. Going to Tampines to meet the super nice girl later to get my dress! :D Bought a (somewhat pretty) formal dress because the stupid tutor told us that we have to be in formal clothes on Tuesday for our module's interview, LAST NIGHT. Tsk!? On top of which, we also have to prepare a whole list of interview questions. Nobody mentioned about it, briefed us about it, gave us a rough idea, showed us a sample, shared with us any guidelines or whatnot. Welcome to the life of a Poly student, indeed. Go visit Thursday Tales if you have not!! :D The owner is a really nice girl!!!!!! I'm getting the Polka Dots Dress! Is it formal enough? :x I really have no idea... Sigh. Hope it's enough to set a good impression!

Week Two

2011-05-05T21:56:00.002+08:00

I have been on an emotional ride for the past few days. There's just a lot of things to share but who's there to listen to every single whiny story of mine? :( Officially starting projects from next week onwards. Hectic. Didn't update for the past few days because firstly I was really lazy to and secondly, time wasn't on my side. Every time I turn on my laptop and notice the time, it would already be midnight. This is how fast time flies when you're "having fun". It's nice to say tomorrow is finally Friday :D Hehehe. I don't know what to blog about actually :(

Met Peony the other day (Tuesday I guess) and we had our dinner at Tampines :) Hehehe. Ended up not going for TPAC's trial today. Okay I'm really lazy to post now. I promise I'd try to do a long and proper post again soon okay? Sorry hun! ^.^

Starbucks

2011-05-02T23:59:00.002+08:00

Met Jeannie today to study because she's having her exams tomorrow so I offered her some help :) While she was looking through her notes, I was trying to absorb my SAS Lecture notes and I realized, I couldn't even relate it to my Tutorial -.- Either the Lecturer or the whole of BIT students were lost in Galaxy the other day. No joke. At around eight plus before we decided to go separate ways, Li Bin wanted to meet due to some problems so we waited for her and Wei Ming :) She poured her problems out and was fine after some time. Talked and parted ways at eleven :) School, awww, mid-year exams tomorrow. Good luck babies! :D

Stay Home Day

2011-05-01T22:06:00.002+08:00

That Triple Mint you see up there is the one my monstrous-head-girl got me the other day as my (extremely awfully)belated birthday present :) Hehe. Just wanted to blog an image of it. Ha! There's no school tomorrow so I might be heading to Jeannie's place to help her with her studies while I look through my SAS notes :) Yup that's all~ Today is a stay home day and I kept eating.

Enjoy your week while it lasts! Xoxo.

Recharge

2011-04-29T22:14:00.003+08:00

First week of school has been pretty hectic and thankfully, it has all passed :) Ended school really early today so went to Simei to open shop for JieJie. Was practically dozing off but I just spent a large sum of money. Ha ha ha. What's new anyway~ Even if I save up to my goal, I'd still spend them eventually. It's just a matter of when so I figured that, it doesn't matter anymore, honestly. Cannot be greedy :)

I slept at 3 yesterday night and jumped up at 7.20 today. I don't know why either :/ Went to prepare for school at 7.30 and took my time to walk to the bus stop because the bus was later today :b The moment I alighted from 34, I saw a double-decked 69 across the road. Classic. Even if I were to fly over, I also need times to insert my wings what...... Zz. So I walked to the other side slowly and waited for Nigel :) Took bus 69 to school together and it was damn packedddddddd. Was discussing with him where should I take shuttle bus from. HAHA. Comm Skills was rather fun today because we had brainstorming session :) I grouped with the boys since I sat closest to them.

Our topic was "How Can We Change The World" and we chose to do for the worse because Ashique's group chose the same topic as us so they did for the better :) Full of rubbish and basically our "motto" was just to kill and destroy the world. Kept laughing because of Vincent's nonsense. Policemen are our punching bags and they are our bait to start the war. There's a lot more but I really can't think anymore. I'm dozing off again... :x

Had APEL make-up class until 12 and we were dismissed :D It's more of an hour of slacking session though. Yup. That's all :) Sorry if this post sounds stupid or something. I don't know what am I typing! :( I hope TP's Sports Club would get more Team Temasek shirt! :( :( :( Pretty please~

Platforms and Triple Mint

2011-04-28T23:50:00.002+08:00

I really detest taking photos with this monstrous-head-girl of mine here because she's so small sized! Her head is small, her body is small, her feet is small, and the list goes on. Damn slim ah this idiot :( Haiya. HAHAHAHA. Had lesson at 11 today and I met Joey (feels weird typing my own name, HAHA, she's my SL ^.^) at about 1040 because she's giving me her Business Accounting book :) Going to buy SAS textbook from her too since hers is brand new. No point spending so much on a book when I can get it at less than half the price right?! :x Used Excel again for CTOS Tutorial and there's homework to complete~ Got to quickly complete this post and get started on Comm Skills! :(

Was supposed to have a class outing today but somehow it was cancelled really last minute. Stayed back with the usual to print their notes and left at two plus together with Kelly :) Went separate ways at Tampines since she was heading for Town and I wanted to get Cup Walker from CP :) Bought 2 cups of Hazelnut Milk Tea and took a cab to RP to wait for Si Hwee. Was reallyyyyyyyyyyy lost in that school. It's actually bigger than TP and it is air conditioned. Faints. But TP isn't that stuffy too :b Met Adelind and caught up with her for awhile ^.^ *Hugs* She was in a hurry and YX called me so I met him at Subway :D That nice boy helped me carry my book!!!! HAHAHAH. My books are neither cheap nor light okay..... :( Yes, I know you feel me. Thank you.

He brought me around to have a look at the CCA and chanced upon Si Hwee while we were on the way to South Food Court :P Hehe!! Oh and I saw Suhail too! Super coincidental!!! HAHAHAHA :D :D :D Adelind said I know quite a lot of people in RP and come to think of it..... In a way, maybe yes. Or I should say, I'm lucky today because I got to meet Greendale people! :D I saw Jun Jie at TP yesterday too! All the GDL kids! (L) Walked to CWP and we took a train to AMK after much hesitation. Ate at Shabu-Shi for three hours. HA! I've no idea how, but we just managed to do it. Helped her out with her RJ and I finally know how life is like for RP kids. Maybe because it's my first time so I find it rather fun and I don't feel the pressure :x

Walked around and as the title suggests, we bought the same platform - same design and color :D Actually we only walked one level. HAHAHAHA. Saw the iPhone portable charger I've been searching high and low for so I'd most probably go back there to get them :) She bought me a "chewing gum plush" too as my belated gift. Teehee :b Really cute!!!! An image was uploaded on my Twitter so search for it there :B Called Daddy and we waited for him to come pick us up :D Sent the girl home first before Daddy dropped me off.

My eyelids are getting really heavy now but I need to complete my Comm Skills first :( Bye! :D

Student Union

2011-04-27T20:19:00.003+08:00

Today is only third day of the week and it feels like five days or so have passed by! :( No, I'm not complaining that school is tiring or boring. It's draining every ounce of energy in me but in a good way :) I don't dread school and I kind of look forward to every morning although I always have a hard time pulling myself out of the bed :x Time passes really fast in school although some lectures/tutorial/lab lessons may be boring ^.^ And I've got to admit, I'm starting to like the class more~ Hehe. All the really nice people (L)

There's nothing much for me to blog about though :/ Just some normal, typical Poly student life? I shall try to recall what I've been doing and make it as interesting as I can (totally impossible!) to keep you entertained and make you regret not coming into my course :) HA! Like I've been mentioning, Tuesday is my late day so I had school at 1pm yesterday :) Woke up at around ten plus because Keeven cried so I played with him before preparing for school :) Met Kelly, Tiffany and Mindy outside the library at about 12.45 before we went into the Lecture Theatre. Surprisingly when we entered the LT, it was already packed! On Monday it was still pretty empty even 5 minutes before the start of the lecture! Tsktsk :b Had an hour break so we decided to try out the food at IIT's food court :) Air conditioned like shiok maximum?! Hahahah! Better than the stuffy, humid canteen at SOB :(

We had System Analysis after our break and this Junkie Teacher (in Poly, tutors or rather, "relief" teachers are known as Junkie, fyi) is as usual, in her own world. She was briefing us our Case Study for SAS but basically all she did was read out the information from the word document which is.... Pointless? -.- We could do it ourselves too, no? -.- So instead of paying attention most of us were using Twitter, Facebook, talking and occasionally listening to what she has to say. It was more of a free lesson and she finally decided to release us at 4.45 :D Teehee. Went to buy CTOS and APEL books with the usual before we headed separate ways ^.^ Thankfully we only need the Excel book for CTOS or I'd dread every single CTOS lesson.

I slept late last night because there were many things to do and we had to complete two surveys for APEL. One of it is about a personality quiz which tells you what type of............ Fish..... You are -.- My bed had a fierce battle with my eyes and mind again this morning but I still woke up in the end because I was laughing at Si Hwee for missing 4 buses. I didn't want to be in the same plight so I decided that it's time to wake up. I was on time and everything, yes. But I wasn't saved from being late for school. I missed 2 bus, because it was super packed. Lesson learnt: never laugh at Si Hwee but... HAHAHAHAHAHAH heck! :b

Finally boarded the third bus because the bus-driver was being a really kind soul. He opened the back door and yes, that means I got a free ride! ^.^ Hehehe. Had Communication Skills today and the lecturer is really............ Eccentric. Hahahahaha. Two hours of Comm Skills didn't felt like forever (thank God) but then again, no modules make me feel like dying literally despite it being a minimum of one hour per lesson ;) Heh! Lecture for Business Accounting was reallyyyyyy boring though. It's in a way related to PoA :) Had gastric pain and we went to IIT's food court again today for lunch ^.^ Had another lecture after lunch and I doubt anyone was paying attention to the poor lecturer :/ It's like as though I printed out my SAS lecture notes for nothing :x Hehehe.

Joined TPSU in the end with Leo :D Wanted to get Team Temasek's shirt but it went out of stock already :( Stayed back in school today to get our CTOS Excel homework done ^.^ Completed it first with Leo and Vincent while Lin Quan copied Leo's. And that ass had the cheeks to say that I better not get anything wrong else he'd put the blame on me. HELLO!?!? I got force you copy my answer or not?! Solve it yourself lah! Sickening. But I was fine after that :/ Helped Kelly, Nigel, Tiffany and Mindy before they printed notes for SAS :) But JieJie would be printing for me too and I guess I'd just pass mine to someone else to save the hassle and complications :/

School is great when you have wonderful people around you :) Lesson starts at 11 tomorrow but it doesn't apply to all Thursdays, sadly. Would be having lunch with the class after school and hope everything turns out well! :D Hehehe. It's been superrrrrrrr long since I played with Keeven! But I managed to do so tonight ^.^ On a random note.... Diet? HAHAAHAHAH. I guess I need not tell you the obvious right? :x Let's wait till May! First weekends, 7th May okay! ^^ Hehe :/

First Day Of School

2011-04-25T22:29:00.003+08:00

My day turned out rather great today! I woke up on time but lazed around until I was late in meeting the girls. So we met in school instead to get my sweets and chocolates from Cheers before entering the Lecture Theatre :D Had Lecture first thing in the morning and basically the lecturer repeated herself for a gazillion times, "Those who just entered, please come and get your lecture notes." Started our first lesson on Economics and I couldn't stop staring into space. I was lost in my own world 3/4 the time but nevertheless, I managed to follow her train of thoughts :) Hehehe. Economics is the allocation of scarce resources to satisfy the unlimited wants of society ^.^ I'm helping you to increase your human capital (knowledge - mental) okay!!! You should be glad :D HAHAHA.

Okay okay.

Had a tutorial lesson on System Analysis next but since it was our first lesson, we had free time during that period :D We were free to use Facebook, Twitter and etc ^.^ Quite a nice "junkie" teacher. Hehehe. Had an hour break so Kelly, Mindy, Tiffany and I ate at SOB's canteen. Chanced upon Peony there ^.^ Hehehe. Went to cheers before APEL and our Care Person gave us a Toblerone each. Hehe. Had some group discussion during the one hour period and some small talks :) Last lesson of the day was CTOS. Learned about Excel and I must admit that time passed really quickly! Didn't even notice how fast the time flew by. Went to the library with some of the boys and girls after school to get our lecture notes for Business Accounting and Macro Economics :D

I kind of like this class now that most of them start to open up and there's more communication ^.^ Hehehe. Bunch of jokers, just like in FTP. And I must admit this group of boys are really gentleman and nice though they are mean at times :b There's a lot of books to buy though :( There's notes to print every week for CTOS on top of the 3 books we need to buy. Thankfully we only need the Excel book for now :x I'd also have to get the textbook for SAS and a file plus notebook for APEL. That's not all though! That's just the end, for today ONLY.

Met Seng Hock after school at Tampines and got my things from Popular :D Thank you sweet boy! Had dinner at the food court so I could have my Indonesian BBQ. Was trembling badly because of hunger pangs. Walked around then came back :) Was supposed to meet Peony but it was too late already and I took my dinner already. Good start for the week and lesson starts at 1 pm tomorrow! ^^ Hehe. Thank you lovely people who messaged me this morning! It really made me happy and loved for a moment HAHAHAH. Some were hurrying me, wishing me good luck and trying to psycho me to wash up because me being me, couldn't stop lazing around (L)

Ready, Set, Go!

2011-04-24T21:13:00.003+08:00

Tomorrow is officially the end of my holidays and a brand new beginning for me. New environment, new faces, new people, new friends, new lifestyle. Everything starts afresh. Frankly speaking, I'm completely over my results already. I'm glad I managed to get a spot for myself in TP's SOB. Regardless of what course it is, I thank god, it is TP. Because I'm one big fat lazy girl, so the distance is all I care :) Period. HA! Three days have passed, I'm still NOT over SOB's cheers. ~~SEVEN TIME~~EIGHT TIME!!!! YOU! The one reading this post right now. If you live near Tampines, I HOPE TO SEE YOU IN TP'S SOB NEXT YEAR OKIE DOKIE? :D Let's make it a legendary record; TP Orientation Grand Finale Champion, SOB for the eighth time! (L) Hehehehehe ^.^

I forgot to get an eraser, ruler, and notebook for school -.- But well, the notebook can wait :) I intend to wait till the second week of school before getting it. I doubt it'd be of any use anyway :( Bought many color pens and nope! I still haven't gotten enough yet :x Okay let me correct myself. I got colored markers. Not pens :/ I am still spending like no tomorrow. Sigh. But don't worry. I know I have to save, yes. Super excited for school yet a little dreading it. People dress up for the first month of school but I'm going to be the opposite. I shall just keep things simple and see how it goes from there :) Teehee. I must still say. I FEEL DAMN FAT. F**K. IT'S TRUEEEE :( :( :( Will be taking up swimming lessons with Jeannie every Sunday from next month onwards! :D Hehehehe.

I. Will. Lose. Weight. Just. Wait. And. See. Fool. Through swimming. HAR HAR HAR.

I feel really insecure with myself. Upset, in despair, useless. I have no idea why. Just lack that confidence. Well, I'd pick myself up somehow. Lose weight plan next month, jiayou jiayou :D HAHAHAHAHA. Chey! Okay some things need not be said clearly. Just wait and see! :b

New Age Girl

2011-04-22T21:51:00.002+08:00

I've been on this page for an hour before I closed it and came back again. HAHA! Decided to blog because I'm listening to "New Age Girl" and I got a little more hyped up :) Yes! This is TP's mass dance song! RAWR! Lolol. Cute thing :D I guess "Party Rock Anthem" is a popular song among all Polytechnics though :b Hehehe. Getting a little excited for school on Monday right now ^.^ Days are going to pass by really fast this time round, no doubt! Going to get my stationeries tomorrow I suppose. Too bad we wouldn't have time to make a trip to Tampines :( I'd really love to go Montip! And I wouldn't want to specially make a trip down either :( Sigh. Now I'm thinking of getting a small messenger bag for school because I wouldn't need a big bag all the time at all. Haiyaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa.

Had dinner at Punggol Plaza's Nihon Mura today because school is starting and JieJie said there won't be any chance for us to have Japanese food as and when we want to anymore. Was thinking if I should be a member too but it's okay :) Hehe. Okay I'm feeling really sleepy right now so I shall just end my post (abruptly) here ^.^ Orientation has totally reverted my bio clock back. It drained me out wholly and before the clock even strikes eleven, I'd be struggling badly on bed already. It's a good sign, I suppose? Now that all my lessons start at 9 am and only Tuesday is a late day - 1 pm - I'd have to wake up early once more. Ah. But after a maximum of three hours, I'd have at least an hour break ^.^

Goodnight, xx.

Seventh

2011-04-21T19:59:00.005+08:00

My day was faaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaantastic! HAHAHAHA. Okay it was average but I got pretty high during the Olympiad~ :D But my class girls are pretty ~.~ Why is it always like that?! :( The guys I left with before the cheerleaders performed were enthusiastic though! Which is of course a good news. And in two days, I made friends with 4 boys and 5 girls! Muahahaha. I think it's a good start for me!! ^.^ Got my time-table and matriculation card today :) Not the best but I guess it's still okay. Can't compare because it's tertiary education now, everything changes~ My lessons for Monday: 9-12 & 1-4, Tuesday: 1-2 & 3-5, Wednesday: 9-1 & 2-3, Thursday and Friday: 9-1 ^.^ Study break on 11th June for two weeks! Best! Hehehehehe.

My brother-in-law fetched me to school yesterday and today so I didn't have to squeeze in the bus :D Dropped JieJie off first before we had breakfast opposite TP then I left for my orientation :) The more I see and communicate with my class people, I find them friendly and really nice. Jokers! Hehe. Yup so that pretty much sums up my orientation days in TP :b School of Business has won the orientation overall finale championship for 7th continuous time (including this year)! Hopefully things would remain the same for next year :D Teehee. 8th time 8th time 8th time! Biz biz biz biz ness~

Bought a pencil case today which caught my eyes while I walked past Century Square! :D Super happy because that was the pencil case I used back in primary school! About 9 years ago?! Haha! Got one for Rachel too ^.^ Was hesitating and finally got the netted one and I bought olive green because the color is unique~ Didn't like the red while pink and blue are really common colors :( Regretting a little but it's okay! ^.^ Going to drop by Montip again to get the pouch-like pencil case to put some other things :D Maybe I'd get the normal material one if there is!! ^^ Okay okay, I've been spending so much of money! $400 to reach my target. May and June shall be saving money months~ 2 months for $400, I don't see why is it impossible right! :x Just wait!! From July onwards I'd not complain about this anymore! I promise! :/

Starting school next week so I'd need a foolscap or notebook plus some pens now~ :D There's no need for laptop unless I have to complete a project and textbooks are redundant plus a waste of money. Best or best! ^.^ Okay I'm feeling really tired now and my fever/flu is on and off now. Ugh. Shall play Pokemon for a short while and sleep early tonight :D

School of Business

2011-04-20T20:42:00.003+08:00

Day one of Orientation today and honestly, it was more of a hypnotizing session. Woke up at 5.30 and snoozed my alarm until 6.20 before I went to bathe. Had breakfast before going TP and yup, I was early. It was really awkward moment beyond description. Sigh. But I made two friends as soon as I sat down, hehehe. No comments for my class. I'm just wondering how would I be able to pull through. Stuck with this class for one year! Hopefully things would turn out better, pretty pretty please! :( Nothing amazing for today at all. Okay, maybe because I'm really tired right now. If I feel like it, I'd blog more about the events today on my post tomorrow.

Bye-bye :D Hehe, xoxo. Oh! TP girls are generally damn good looking! Like really in general. Got money take is it?! Wlao.

Lost In My Own Space

2011-04-19T23:17:00.002+08:00

Have been hooked onto my VBA's Pokemon (Emerald) again since last night because Rachel have been talking about it through Twitter over the past few days and I found my VBA emulator so I decided to start all over again :/ Well, I actually played it two years back but it was another version :b Hehehe. I slept at two and woke up at 6.30 to give Yongda a call. Where to find a kind soul like me huh!? HAHAHA. Okay okay, I gave him a call because he said please and those boys are all nocturnal owls so I agreed, provided I don't oversleep :)

I brought my laptop over to the shop today to keep me accompanied and yes it made so much of difference! Hahaha. Played Pokemon for the whole day but Peony brought two of her friends over too :) They are in the same course as me but we're not in the same class :/ But at least I know two course-mates now! Hehehe :D Was so engrossed with my game that I either reply people things related to Pokemon or I totally forget to send my messages out :x

Orientation tomorrow and my brother-in-law would be fetching me there! ^.^ Got to wake up earlier for breakfast because we'd be sending JieJie to school first. This reminds me of my first day of school in Greendale, back in 2007. JieJie specially woke up early and accompanied me to school. I felt so much better and wasn't as nervous while she accompanied me there. I love the way we all wake up bright early in the morning before the sun even rises and especially when it's because of me. I know I sound really selfish and self-centered but it makes me feel their love even more. Like they really care. Because since young, they've been doing so much for me, that I've gotten so dependent on them.

School is starting next week and I've got totally no idea if I'd need a laptop or not. Even so, I don't really have any laptop in mind too. Ha. :) Shall see how it goes~ And yesyesyes I've been putting on weight a lot a lot a lot a lot a lotttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttt. Well. School next week whut! Lazy bones like me, really, exercising is definitely a big no-no. I believe the cut down on fast food would help. Why would it not? Hehehe! I hope I'd be able to get my time-table tomorrow! :( Shall see which days would be a free and good day for swimming lessons! ^.^ Yesyes I really believe cutting down on fast food itself is enough because that's what happened during O's period! I still ate. In fact, I ate a lot back then too in a meal but no fast food :D Hehe.

I received my 3 parcels today and................. MY BAGGU BAGS ARE HERE!! Most probably carrying the bag pack tomorrow! ^.^ Hehehe. I. Really. Need. To. Cut. Down. Sigh. By June? One month...

*Chants to self - it'd be fast. Determination!*

Can't Keep My Eyes Off You

2011-04-18T21:12:00.003+08:00

Tomorrow would be the last day I get to enjoy and I'd be having my Orientation from Wednesday to Thursday already~ Kind of looking forward to it yet a part of me is dreading it. Having a little regrets for not going the Freshman Camp that's optional though :x Hehe. But well, I told JieJie and she said, people who go for that camp are like homeless. I don't know why but they seemed really against that idea and my brother-in-law was telling me to just troll the GL if they try to psycho me into doing things I don't feel comfortable with. HA!

Same old line. I can't wait to receive my timetable *chants a hundred times* HAHAHA. But well, if time permits, I'd have breakfast with Yongda in the morning before we leave for school ^.^ Hehe. Maybe on days we all start school early, can meet Yuexin and eat at Econ too! :D Have so many things I'd like to say but haiya, save it. HAHA.

爱很简单

2011-04-17T23:32:00.002+08:00

A picture speaks a thousand words and the four pictures above should be more than enough to summarize my day :b I woke up pretty early today despite sleeping late last night and meeting the girls and boys at three~ Still felt a little sick but was definitely much better. Didn't feel as sore and feverish as I was last night ^.^ Had a super (partial) healthy breakfast today :D Three soon kueh and a glass of milk :D Hahahah! Played with Keeven until it was about one before I went to prepare :)

Left home at two and took a train to TPY. Met Kim Yan to get my bag ^.^ Thank you little girl~ From there, I took MRT to Bishan then changed to Circle Line to Serangoon and met my girls: Jeannie and Si Hwee (L) I guess it's the norm for Si Hwee to hug every time we meet. Yup, that's what we did the moment we met today too :D Surprisingly the both of us wore a checkered outerwear and no, it was totally unplanned! We didn't even talk about what were we going to wear! Ha!

Bought bubble tea as soon as we reached because I was super thirsty. These two girls even asked if I was okay and have my fever subsided. So sweet, how to not fall in love with them!? Haha. I mean like, they could've just assumed that I'm no longer ill since I could meet them, no? :b Hehehe. That's my girls though :D Walked around and finally sat outside Nex, near Shabu Sushi to wait for the boys. Took quite a lot of photos using our phones and we also took a shot each using my Polaroid for Si Hwee to keep :B Glad she likes them though it's Mickey Mouse theme :)

Decided to walk around Nex to see where we could settle down for our dinner and coincidentally the boys have reached. After much hesitation, we dined at Carls Junior -.- The smokers had to puff after a meal so we went outside again. Everyone agreed to catch a movie so we went to the cinema and stood there for close to thirty minutes, looking at the movies airing at Shaw Theatre. They don't even have "BKO" (Bangkok Knockout)! :( :( :( Very much depressing, yes. Not even "The Ultimate Winner"! Boohooooooo! Si Hwee and the boys have already caught "Scream 4" so it wasn't even an option. And last night, the boys watched "Source Code". They are like on a movie marathon or something please! Cannot stand them.

But I've got to admit, the company really matters a lot. We caught "Don't Go Breaking My Heart" in the end and yes, we laughed non stop! Yongda and I laughed almost every fifteen minutes. I didn't laugh to the extent that I had stomach cramps but maybe it's because I'm with them. I feel comfortable with them, and that's all that matters. I don't say everything that's kept in my heart, I don't pour out all my troubles or whine. But I know I can be myself. I don't have to act innocent and all. I can just hit them, disturb them, show them my attitude and laugh to my heart's content when I'm around them. It's like we've all grown up within this five years. Somehow, in my heart, I feel that..... We've all matured. Maybe not me. But definitely, them. I really enjoyed my day today albeit it was a short one and we had to wait for the boys for hours! :) Teehee.

Bought Sushi after the movie and we sat outside Nex once more because the smokers were itching for a smoke~ Took a train back together and changed to LRT with Xiang, YD and YX :) That's all~

After considering, I got two Baggu bags in the end! It's such a tough choice, between Coral and Sea! :( I know you must be thinking that I'm nuts, why do I even need two right! And why these colours of all the other choices. Basically, I don't want to wait so I chose the instock ones and above all, I prefer the newer colours. It's like, I already have bags that are brown and gray. I don't really fancy black or white bags but of course it really depends too. Not for Baggu though. So in the end, I got a Coral Duck Bag (sling/tote) and a Sea Bag pack! ^^ Can't wait to receive them by end of this week! Hehehe. I'm really broke now have been spending and spending but I've been reminding myself that I aimed to hit my goal by June. Meaning, by 31st June I should have that amount and starting from July, my bank should no longer deplete below that amount. And yes, I'd definitely get what I want! :b

ThinThin is going to ROM this coming June and he may be getting married in November instead of December. Heheh, excited! :x

You're like a danger to me. With each step I try to take, I find myself pushing you further away instead of mending the existing gap. I dare not fall for you, I try so hard to keep myself away from you. Don't you feel anything? :( You're so cold now that I can't help but notice it. The distinct change. Ah...

The One For Me

2011-04-16T22:31:00.002+08:00

Feeling super weak right now and I can barely lift my hands up to text properly. Going to try to continue sleeping soon since I'm meeting the boys together with Jeannie and Si Hwee at three tomorrow! :D Hehe. Got to get well by then else how can I see my babies! :P I really regret eating my fishball noodles and oreo biscuits at two plus today ._. Because at four plus, my sister and brother-in-law came to pick me up and they had Yoshinoya! Tsk. I was too full to even finish the whole beef bowl :( :( :( Came home and took a nap at seven. Woke up at eight because of the continuous incoming messages while I was semi-conscious and I could not fall back to sleep anymore.

Decided to use the laptop at nine and after awhile, I started feeling really hungry but after eating two ngoh hiangs I felt really full but my mind just kept telling me that my stomach is starving and I'm having gastric pain. Insanity. Was feeling really weak and giddy so I just forced the food down. BUT I'm still feeling damn sick and weak despite eating dinner. Why like that?! Zz. Still feeling really sore all over. Hopefully I'd really get well when I wake up tomorrow. Thank god there was dinner at home today else I don't know what would I end up eating since my stupid Buddy is at Town with the boys, catching a movie yet again.

Kampong Buddy

2011-04-15T22:43:00.003+08:00

The other day, Jay told me that some snobs look down on people living at Punggol because of their "kampong" dressing. Well, too bad, my babies here have no sense of fashion then. We all dress like kampong kids, why? Get your family lawyer to sue us then or go complain on your cyber world :D The boys don't even have to dress like the typical "Town boys" to look good. They dress atypically and they are hot like that. In your fat face! Woohoo~ Hehehe.

Nothing to blog about for today but I'm really looking forward to Sunday because of the date! Meeting the boys and Jeannie (L) Hehehehehe :D Orientation next Wednesday and Thursday. Poor people on my Twitter got to hear my nonsense like today, for the whole of next week. Monday, Tuesday followed by Friday to Sunday :x Well.... School would be starting soon and I'm really looking forward to receiving my time-table! Gonna make time for my girls (: (: (: Teehee.

Oh yes and I've got a new eating buddy/kaki/companion. HAHAHAHA. Who else but Yongda, of course! HAHAHAHA. That kid lives so near me, of course I aim him lah! My easy target~ ^.^ Plus I have special privilege! What!? We are friends for FIVE YEARS already okay!! Sounds so long right? Actually we were classmates in 2007 and that's all. HAHAHAHA. He followed me home once with Yuexin! These two imps. Because I moved to Toa Payoh, I didn't manage to be in the same class as YD in secondary two! Hehe :/ So, yup yup super happy ah. Got one tortoise to bring me around Punggol so I won't be so embarrassed anymore! Come to think of it, I know where is Popeyes, Punggol Plaza, Prime Mart, Greendale, Econ and Meadows (Kopitiam). But the only places I know how to go from my place are PP, Prime, Econ, and GDL. I know where is the MRT station and all but hell yes, I know nuts about the directions to walk there!

I wanna watch Sanctum and Scream 4~ :( You promised, but you left me with your cold shoulders. Why?

Five and Counting

2011-04-14T21:30:00.006+08:00

I have been waking up awfully early for the past few mornings. On Wednesday, I woke up at eight plus because I had to meet Charmaine for breakfast at 10.30 am! From 11, we changed the timing to 10.45, then 10.30 but in the end we were still late and met at 10.45 instead :x Peony texted me before I left home so we planned to give Charmaine a surprise. But in the end the surprise still failed though :/ We had breakfast together at Long John Silver :D Hehe. Charmaine left earlier yesterday so Peony accompanied me till I closed shop ^.^ We bought food from the Pasar Malam for our lunch and the table was filled with our food!

Took quite a lot of photos to kill time since it was reallyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy quiet at Simei yesterday. So we closed shop at 7.30 yesterday and took a train back together :D I alighted at Tampines though and took bus 27 to Compass Point to meet Si Hwee!!! (L) She bought Cup Walker and we waited for Jeannie together before buying Si Hwee's hangers. Super miss this girl!! The air is cleared and you've no idea how glad am I to have her back. The initiative was worth the effort. Five years of friendship, how could we just let it go this way? I'm happy because I don't have to act like I don't give a fuck about this little girl anymore. I may bitch about her and mock or tease at her but I can't hide my concern for her either.

Had dinner at Kopitiam and I was still feeling hungry so I decided to try Hazelnut Milk Tea. Best recommendation by Si Hwee and I got hooked onto it now! :/ Hehehe. Saw Wen Xian with Yongda too while we were on the way to get some tidbits! :D Waited for Xian and YD to finish eating because Si Hwee wanted to smoke and we ended up sitting outside CP. Jeannie left earlier since she had school while we continued to crap around. It was seriously the best day of this year because I finally caught up with them! Like in real lifeeeeeeeee (L) HAHAHA. Had a great laugh with them ;) Most probably meeting the boys on Sunday and Jeannie would be coming too!! ^.^ Too bad Si Hwee may have to work but it's okay. We can always meet again soon since we're so near each other now! Took a cab back with YD at 11.50 and of course I alighted first :b

Today we (Charmaine, Peony and I) were supposed to have breakfast together again but Charmaine overslept so Peony and I made do with it ourselves. Had KFC breakfast together ^.^ She left at around 2 and before that we had snacks. Time passed really slowly today but was crapping around with YD after he woke up :x Had dinner and closed shop at 7.45 today. I keep having this thinking that tomorrow is Saturday! :/

It'd have been better if you're still here and things didn't turn out so awkward. Because honestly, I've no idea what went wrong. "Why like that??" Ahhh. I miss you :(

More pictures are uploaded on Facebook! :)

Too Serious Too Soon

2011-04-12T20:45:00.003+08:00

Okay I have no pictures to upload recently but anyway Tumblr pictures are good what :D Hehehe. I've received my necklaces and bracelet today plus some clothes I've ordered online! :D You really must have a look at Fashion Hooks!!!!! Their normal rings and connector rings are dirt cheap!! $5and $8 respectively. Tell me, where to find?!?!?!

Charmaine dropped by with her friend today to make an album for their friend's birthday. Pretty!! :D Hehe. Like yesterday, today is a rather sad day :( :( :( Sigh. I miss you. Really...

Timetable would either be given next week during Orientation, or it'd be posted online next Friday. Looking forward to know my timetable! I hope I'd have some time to meet my Darling girl ^.^ I really miss the "Kampong Life" :( :( :( Kampong kia siol!! Hahahaha. Okay I got bug already. OH MY GOD. TODAY I SAW A CREATURE WITH PHYSICAL ATTRIBUTES OF A MALE BUT THIS CHAO TURTLE HAS A CHEST. BREASTS. I was feeling super sleepy but when I saw it, immediately ceh sia! Laughed till I got so awake, that is.

I seriously got bug because I'm in TP, I envy RP students. Now, I am jealous of NP too. Why? Because they Friday no school. But it's odayz. I'm in TP, near Tampines Central CC. I get to eat my fried fish slice soup bee hoon. Muahahahahahahahahahahaha~ Okayyyy school's starting I've been pigging recently. Time to lose weight. Wait till school starts kk. Forever sia. Hahahaha. But this time it's really bad. Always like that sia. Double chin or wider, either way. Cannot both also lose away meh!? This post like those typical wanna-be type but heck. It's good to read a post filled with nonsensical thoughts. It keeps you entertained :) Life must be filled with craziness! (L)

I hope you'd keep your promise. Attend your Orientation!!

Catching Up

2011-04-11T21:55:00.003+08:00

I spent my day simply today but it was enjoyable though I was pretty upset. But it's okay because I didn't expect much anyway. I should have seen this coming. I woke up at around ten odd today but was lazing around until twelve. Went to bathe and got prepared only because Jay messaged me and I saw his post on my Facebook :x Dilly dallied a little here and there before leaving home at 1 (: Jonathan called and told me he wasn't going for job hunting anymore but I had to accompany Jay so we agreed to meet at 2.30 instead.

Met Jay at Dhoby before we took 36 to Parkway Parade. Bought my breakfast there before meeting a girl to collect his thing. Something cropped up in the end so back to square one, I didn't meet Jonathan at all. It was raining and because I was hungry, Brother said he'd eat sushi with me! Hahahaha why so steady this boy!? We took a bus to his place then to Geylang in the end because we felt like eating dim sum more. Since he wasn't hungry, he brought me to Lor 17 so I could have my Frog Porridge! (L) Since it was near Lor 27, we walked over for Bean Curd. Before that, we even bought some bread to eat. We went to Kallang MRT and bought ice-cream from Mr Bean. I had the Bandung Soy Milk with Pearls too. Tell me, how to not get fat when I'm out with this Brother!?!?!?!

Had many talks and I'm really thankful for him. Since secondary one, he's been looking after me. In the sense that he gives in to me, protects me and speaks up for me. When there's trouble, he'd take the blame too. Yes, many people mistaken him as my boyfriend and vice versa before but in your face, bugger. We've known each other since 2007 and it's been five years. Our friendship is pure, with no doubts needed. There's just so much to list down about what we've did or talked about for today but despite feeling upset, I really did have a good laugh. To the extent that I had stomach cramps. This clown here always cheers me up and listens to my problems. Quite honoured actually. Because I'm the only one with the privilege to whack him and pinch him yet he doesn't retaliate. I'm the only crazy girl who shouted at him before too. HA HA HA :b

Slacked at the MRT station until Jeannie called. Took a train to Tampines and changed to bus 34 back home :) That's all :D I'm feeling rather unhappy but nah, it's okay. I don't play mind games. It'd be your loss when I walk off. I believe in it. I'm not the best nor am I even good to begin with but I believe I deserve someone who'd take the initiative and appreciate me better. Sorry, I'm not good in games like that. Hot and cold, I can't read you unless you lead me on further.

A Break For Now

2011-04-10T23:35:00.003+08:00

Today I had my final baking class!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! :D :D :D :D Hehehehe. The desserts turned out pretty well. Alright, I only tried one out of three though :x I think I woke up super early today and I have no idea why either. But it doesn't really matter anyway since I still took my own sweet time to get myself prepared plus I had to wait for Daddy to be done before he came to pick me up. Went to get my Toms and had lunch at Lorong 7. Well, it was an impromptu decision because Daddy missed the seafood soup. Tsktsk.

Reached Palate Sensations at two sharp but as usual, our class started later than that :) We were done by 4.30 though so did some tempering of chocolates and sugar before leaving. It was pretty fun because since it's the last lesson, we had many different snacks to try and boy were they palatable! Took a train to Punggol and my brother-in-law fetched me back home. Waited for Jeannie to come over before walking over to Prime Mart to meet her :) Had dinner together before walking to Punggol Plaza and I bought my waffle :b Went to Watsons and we ended up buying things under my influence. Muahahahahahahahah ^.^

Sat at the void deck opposite PP and caught up a little before I walked her to the bus stop and came home while on the phone with my lover girl :) Yup and that's all for today :D Meeting Jay tomorrow since it's been so long since I've met this Brother of mine! Hehehe. The super busy boy forgot that he actually had a date in the noon so he's meeting me in the evening instead. Well, I'm not sure though because honestly I guess I'd be heading home and lazing around for the whole day after meeting Jay. Well, fingers crossed that it's true and I'm thinking too much. Please.

I kind of regret not going RP but then again the distance really kills. Travelling for an hour odd for three years is no joke and I'd definitely surrender in less than half a year. But what's good is that the time-table is fixed. Year one, 8am to 3pm every day! Plus they don't require any books or notes or whatnot. Just laptop, and nothing else. Even exams are conducted via laptop! Okay enoughhhhhhhhhhh. TP is the nearest polytechnic so it wins hands down. HA HA HA.

Bye-bye :D

Had a Bad Week?

2011-04-09T22:13:00.005+08:00

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I haven't been blogging of late because I've been feeling really lazy to turn on my laptop and my bed has been really seductive for the past few nights :x So to make up for it, I shall try my best to rack my brains and do a long, proper update. Hehe. My posts have been rather long lately but it's really irrelevant. Just make do with it ok? Xoxo~ ^.^ But meanwhile, you need to give me some time because old hag here turned 75 already so my brain is functioning at the speed of a walking tortoise right now unlike you, zoom zoom like a hare.

Actually nothing spectacular happened over the past few days so there's nothing for me to blog about either.... :( Yesterday, Peony and Charmaine planned among themselves and visited me at the shop! ^.^ I was really shocked and happy when I saw Charmaine because Peony told me she's meeting her cousin and would drop by for lunch together. Hehehehehe. I really take my hat off them because Peony actually expected me to ask her if she'd like to have a meal together :x So they bought Burger King up to eat together and we caught up a little ^.^ Peony left early while Charmaine stayed to do an album for her dad! Hehe. Although the three of us hardly meet up I must admit that this friendship is really amazing. We met in 2007 and we kind of grew up together. Looking back at those silly times, we were really foolish. But I salute those guys who wooed all three of us. HAHAHAH why they so cute?! Lolol. I actually miss the times we'd talk to each other and am thankful that both of them are still there for me to hear my problems when I ring them up (L)

Today we closed shop early and headed to Expo after eating KFC because there's MPH sales going on ^.^ Took a look at the Adidas sales before going to MPH sales. I spent an hour there and got myself 5+1 books! Hehehe happy kid :D :D :D :D :D I didn't manage to finish browsing all the books though. I only managed to browse through 1/4 of the many books they had there! :( But my brother-in-law said that Borders would have sales soon too so I'd be keeping my fingers crossed that we'd be there! :x Had dinner at the food court nearby before we continued walking around ^.^ There was John Little sales too and I bought 3 bras only. Don't really need more so I bought La Senza's ^.^ And we headed home after that. Hahahahahaahahahaha. Boring life? I know right!

Tomorrow would be the last day of my baking class!! Happy because it's getting pretty boring now. Maybe because I have to travel so far and I don't quite like the desserts. Besides, the course is so costly partly because of the recipe....... Sigh. I'm pretty determined to psycho my dad tomorrow into sponsoring me for my swimming lessons. HAHAHAHA. Don't give me that face. I MEAN IT OK!!! :( I've been eating so much I've gained like 20kg!? I can't even fit into 1/2 of my clothes and it's such a hassle to buy clothes now :( So yes, I'm set on losing weight as soon as school starts. HAHAHAHA yes, when Poly starts. 25th April, it shall be. Wait for my *ahem*~~bad~~good news! :)

I might be taking up more baking classes but well, it really depends. Making your own ice-cream, learning how to bake different types of brownies and cheesecakes. Now this sounds much more attractive, no? :b

Meeting Jeannie after my class tomorrow. So much to tell her!!! Hehehehe. And 60% chance of meeting Jonathan on Monday to watch Sanctum ^.^ Heard from Charmaine it's super gore but it's an action-thriller which interests me! :/ Hopefully things would turn out well! :) Ah and yes, I've reached my goal already!!! But I just spent it away -.- So I'm pretty far from my goal, once again. But it's okay. I said I'd reach my goal by June. AND I WILL. Muahahahahaha~ Which means from July onwards, even if I were to splurge, I'd make sure it doesn't go below my current target. Just you wait and see! :P

Twenty Days Left

2011-04-04T23:46:00.004+08:00

I'm in a dilemma... My Freshmen Orientation is two weeks away from now! I'm excited for it yet hope that day won't come because I'm not prepared for it at all! :( It's going to be a really awkward situation and that's for sure. Sigh. :( :( :( Oh yes and my savings are back to square one right now but it's okay, as long as it doesn't hit below the amount I intended to save! :x I should take things easily :b Ah yes, I'm suddenly having a mood to travel overseas and pretty into the idea of my sister setting up an online fashion site :/ I've got no idea why either. But yup, that idea is going to be on hold. At least not for now. Hopefully it'd commence next year and that's where I'd get my extra income to maintain my expenditure :P Guess there's no point hoping or worrying too much now. After all, good things spread by word of mouth. No point me saying much when it's not going to happen now? :D I'm upset because of my money but then again...... I can't possibly let it rule me. It can be earned back. Besides, it depends on how I see things :D Must remain happy and have a positive mindset! Yup. I've been far too stingy. I couldn't have saved so much actually :x

Okay all these aside.... I am really dying to stop tending the shop and enjoy the remaining weeks of my holidays but no, I can't. Sense of responsibility...... Ugh. I'd be meeting Jeannie this coming Sunday again though :D Hehehehe! Shall psycho Jonathan to Sentosa with my next Monday :P The plan to go to the Zoo was abolished because I just visited there some time this year and somehow that itchy ass wants to sun tan again. Hmm, maybe I'd be able to make him go Underwater World with me? HAHAHAHAHA. In my dreams! Shall see how everything goes because most probably I wouldn't be able to leave the shop closed. Sigh....

I suddenly had some flash backs of the past but well, I've to move on. I'm sorry. I hope you're doing fine and I do see your twits when you update, Seng Hock. Yes, we're still friends. Definitely. You can still drop me a text, I'd still reply. I guess I just need some time and you'd still be the one I'd turn to because after all, I can't deny you understand my plight better than anyone else. I don't exactly know how you're feeling but I know what you're thinking. You know my answer too. Let's just take one step at a time and leave the future aside for now. Every problem would have its solution :D Just give it time. Take good care of yourself and get yourself back on track ok? :) Jiayou~ Remember what I've told you before.

Wonderwoman

2011-04-03T23:59:00.000+08:00

My ass hurts from sitting on the bed for two hours and I am still looking at livejournal selling posts. I seriously need to stop my online indulgence and impulse buying. I have to cultivate the habit of looking around for a cheaper deal or I'd be seeing my money depleting before I can even do something about it. But then again..... School is starting in no time. I've got only another 3 weekends to enjoy and I'm cooped at the shop every single day. Where got time?! Guess I'd search for an alternative, next time. For now, I'd just get anything that catches my eyes. No time to waste. Hehehehehe what an excuse. Ok, thank you. Hahahahahaha.

And I'm down with flu. Feeling a little feverish and in an extremely irritable mood. Oooooooh.

Actually......

2011-04-02T20:51:00.003+08:00

Now, don't you miss my boyplen? :) HEHEHE.

I realized the 100 facts about myself is barely enough because now I feel that there's much more to share!!! But it's okay. You can find out more about me on your own accord and besides, my babies know me well enough so it doesn't really matter actually :b Okay I'm in a rather good mood today so I shall post more photos. Muahahahaha and kill your eyes. Now this sounds great ;) Let me take my words back. I've been in a rather good mood, of late. Hehehehe!

Tomorrow is finally Sunday!!! Damn happy because it's yet another baking session and that'd also mean I'm left with one last course! Teehee ^.^ And of course, it marks the first week of April. School is starting real soon for me..... Ah... I don't really look forward to it because I know there's many people from FTP going to TP too but.... Honestly. I know nobody from FTP going TP. Yes, the irony.... Oh well :D

Basically, there's nothing for me to blog about, as usual. I have some things to pour out though :( :( :( I miss going to Bangkok and Phuket!! I want to travel around and I've got no idea why I told my sister and brother-in-law that I'd rather stay in Singapore when they offered to sponsor me on a trip. *Shrugs.

I have been splurging and I really mean splurge like nobody's business of late. I feel so miserable and guilty now... :( If you think I'm such a spoiled brat to the extent that I keep spending my dad's or siblings' hard earned money, please take back all your harsh comments and in your fat face. It's MY OWN SAVINGS. I don't and never spent other's money. Well occasionally, I do commit this sin I mean like, I don't force people to pay for me!? In fact, I always take the extra effort to turn people down and insist on paying for myself. I wouldn't offer to treat or get something as a gift for someone, but neither do I allow them to pay for me. I'd rather go on dutch than receive or give. Yup. But well, you can say I'm born with a silver spoon and I'm one lucky kid. I don't deny. My sister, brother-in-law, cousin and father (almost always) insist in paying for the things I want and as long as I have my eyes set on it, there's no way I wouldn't get what I want. Yes that's me :)

Recently, I've been receiving parcels because I shop from a variety of blogshops/online sites. I don't favour the idea of restricting myself to only a specific site though I don't compare the prices either :/ I know GMarket offers great deals but I'm really lazy and I have no idea how it works. It's a complete pain in the ass to me :x But I'm also happy with getting my clothes from the different sites though! I must admit that all their services are really efficient :D Hehehe.

Okay okay, my point is..... My extravagant spending is depleting my funds ._. AND I AM SO UPSET ABOUT IT!!!!!!! :( :( :( Please do bother consoling me though I asked for it I FEEL SO BAD. Really! But on a lighter note... I'm using my own savings. I mean, I managed to save because of my dad giving me pocket money monthly but at least I didn't ask for the extra cash, no? My brother-in-law and sister insisted that I've not bought enough clothes and were set on bringing me out to shop for more clothings but I turned them down. I'm trying to be independent and kick my princess attitude aside so please have some heart. I could've just went out with my family members and let them pay for me but no, I chose to do some online shopping at home, paying with my own cash and not opening my mouth for sponsorship.

It's not that I'm broke now. Uh uh... I still have quite a bit of savings which is able to sustain my expenditures. But I'm actually super stingy and..... Yes you've got that right. I feel like I'm one penniless loser right now but in actual fact, I'm not. Gah. It's okay! I've been telling myself that this sum of money spent is something I'd never be able to avoid. You have to spend what you have to, just like you gotta do what you got to, no? :D Hehehehe~ I'd definitely need to buy them sooner or later so it doesn't make any difference ^.^

I'm really into dresses and rompers because it saves me from all the trouble of mixing and matching two pieces clothes but then again...... I can't possibly fill my wardrobe with 3/4 of them, right? ._. It'd be worse off because I'd practically be wearing the same thing over and over again, with changes occasionally when it should be the other way round. Yesssss I should seriously get over it. I'm sorry, I've no idea what I'm blogging about either. HAHAHAHAHA. It's just what's running on my mind so sorry if it bores you. Well, none of my posts are fascinating anyway :x

Rachel, if you do read till this paragraph I honestly salute you and.... I've got a gift for you :) Meet up soon okay! (L) It's an encouragement for you so please put in effort for studies ok!!

101

2011-03-31T21:52:00.004+08:00

I've decided to do a new post because I foresee this being a super long post! :x But maybe not anymore. There was a whole list of never-ending chunk of things which I wanted to type out but on second thoughts, I forgot :/ Sorry!! Hehehehe. Oh yes, so looking forward to receive my parcel!! Well, the previous post already summed up what's there for me to say, most importantly. Hehehe :D

100FactsAboutMe:

1. I make enemies faster than friends.

2. I AM FAT.

3. I have a fetish for pretty boys - It's just an admiration and no more than that.

4. I have only one big brother I'd always turn to in times of need - Shawn Lim.

5. I'm not a good person - Friend, family member, lover.

6. I have a very huge ego.

7. I bitched about everyone around me before.

8. I think I'm perfect - I define perfect as a scarred knee.

9. I love my babies - They saw me at my worst, compromised and embraced my flaws.

10. I'm horribly sentimental and sensitive.

11. I day dream and fantasize a lot.

12. I trust people too easily and often divulge my secrets though there's a part of me I'd not show or tell.

13. I'm super insecure when it comes to myself.

14. I love surprises.

15. I love romantic boys who take initiative.

16. I've played more than 15 MMORPG to date (From 7 YO).

17. I get jealous easily but I act like I'm fine.

18. I care more than anyone else though I behave like Idgaf.

19. I think I'm naturally better than anyone else.

20. I used to be really sporty until I entered a mixed school (Secondary life).

21. I am super fussy.

22. I'm a stubborn girl.

23. I have four ex boyfriends but forgot how long was the longest one.

24. I like someone easily but that doesn't mean I'm in love.

25. I'd never confess unless the other party tells me how he feels of me.

26. I like green and Adidas.

27. I shop for jackets more than clothes.

28. I'm a spoiled brat.

29. I forgive easily.

30. I try to act like I'm super petty but I do bear grudges depending on the situation.

31. I love late night talks.

32. I always end up regretting my decisions.

33. I'm indecisive and fickle-minded, whatever you name it.

34. I'm self-centered - Almost always

35. I'm fragile.

36. I like someone now but I highly doubt he likes me :(

37. I'm not good in English at all.

38. I smoked.

39. I'm not someone that easy to read.

40. I have high expectations.

41. I detest my second brother.

42. I'm never satisfied nor contented with what I have.

43. I can be an "expensive and high maintenance" girlfriend.

44. I have very little friends - A handful.

45. I miss being in love and having that indescribable happiness.

46. I love baking.

47. I dream to have a mini cafe that's opened till say 3 a.m during weekends.

48. I choose to trust that nobody is bad or evil in nature.

49. Friends I choose to keep and take initiative are the ones I'd never give up on.

50. I need a lot of opinions and advices.

51. I splurge a lot and require a lot of consolations after the whole process.

52. I love sharing my day with people around me.

53. My favourite boy just messaged me.

54. I am super child-like.

55. I used to have a crush on my eldest brother's good friend name Shinya (LOL) and he's damn pretty!

56. I started pointing middle finger at the age of three.

57. I started using vulgarities at the age of 13.

58. I never communicated in Chinese until I was 13.

59. I can't swim nor cycle.

60. My siblings are in their twenties and thirties - 24, 28 and 33

61. I don't always agree with what I say.

62. I'd date anyone I set my eyes on.

63. I have more male friends than female - Breakdown of communication with girls/women.

64. I respect those who respect me.

65. I can still remember my primary school friends.

66. I love plush toys or anything cute.

67. I often wish I'm someone else.

68. I used to have an "imaginary life".

69. I'm one sarcastic bitch.

70. I despise people who act like they know me inside out. Nobody knows me well enough and that includes me.

71. My brothers and their clique taught me how to flirt since eight.

72. I learned how to hack since eight.

73. I am vulgar.

74. I can be super stingy when I'm determined to save.

75. I'm not one who takes initiative.

76. I strive only when there's competition.

77. I like to be in the limelight.

78. I'm an attention-seeker.

79. I'm shy around people I'm not close to.

80. I only stick to people I'm comfortable or close with.

81. I used to sleep with my eldest brother until I was 14.

82. My eldest brother and I hugged each other to sleep all the time.

83. I have perfect eyesight.

84. Since 12, my height was 163cm.

85. I was from CHIJ Primary TPY

86. The only books I've finished reading were "Twilight" and "A Child Called It".

87. I like the number 17.

88. My sister is my closest kin.

89. I'm a cry baby.

90. I've always felt that boys/men should wear boxers.

91. I have nothing against boys/men with piercings or tattoos.

92. I grew up with my cousins.

93. My childhood days consist memories like block-catching, ice-and-water, blind-mice, playground and etc with my cousins.

94. I used to be the TALLEST among ALL my cousins and I was proud of it.

95. I'm now the SHORTEST among ALL my cousins ._.

96. Nobody knows where I live at exactly.

97. I get paranoid easily.

98. I get emotionally affected and think way too much but that's my nature.

99. I used to be a sprinter.

100. I AM FINALLY DONE (L) and I shall add one more.

101. I graduated from First Toa Payoh Secondary and I went to Greendale Secondary.

Just For Fun

2011-03-31T12:55:00.002+08:00

I'm rotting at Simei so I've decided to do a short and quick update. Teehee. If I'm not lazy tonight I may consider editing this post or add some pictures for your entertainment purposes when I get home tonight :b I've been whining a lot these few days and complaining about the existence of this shop. Seriously. I don't know why either. But honestly without it's existence life would have been way better. Not just for me but for my sister and brother in law too. No joke. Yes it's a loss. But you think they wanted it? I know I suck and fail. From a family member to a friend and finally a lover. But have some heart. I'm trying. At least I know who to be true to and I have my conscience. I have my own set of problems. Sigh.

I hate myself to the core. I'm always in a difficult position I can't make up my mind. Zz. I have this sudden urge to pay a visit to the zoo, again! I want to be like a tourist. What?! School is starting soon for me!!! Of course I must grab all the opportunities now before everybody is too busy for me right :( So happy because Jonathan said he'd be willing to come with me. MUAHAHAHAHAHA. My gain of course! Where to find such a gullible person?! Even my Darling girl is against going to the zoo with me and snap like a tourist!!! :( But it's okay she promised to fix a date and we'd go out together once more before 25th April so I can meet Justin too. HAHAHAHAHHAHA. But I like lightbulb ah..... Never mind I'd have backup plan.

Which reminds me.... I'm going to have a sister in law (officially) by next year. My brother is getting married most probably by end of this year! Hehehe :b

Actually I have nothing to update about lorh.... I just felt like blogging :( Maybe I shall do the 100 Facts About Myself next time. I was "playing" this with the busy boy some time last week. Say, Tuesday? Haha. Wols, kk I know. I'm not ready for school at all. The clothes to wear for everyday is such a hassle! Sigh. I kind of forgot what I wanted to blog about too.... :(

I'd like to have Sour Sally and Red Mango plus maybe Best Fries Forever!!!!!!!!!!!!!

OH I AM HAVING MY SECOND LAST (which is also my third) BAKING CLASS THIS SUNDAY. Hehehehe today is Thursday already!!!!!! ^.^ I want to learn how to make macaroons and many more! But heck. All these can wait. I should get the recommended recipe books :$ I promise I'd bake when there's time! Hehe. The thing is that the class I attend on Sunday is a group work kind of thing so, yup. Hehe. Looking forward to May :D

Busy Bee

2011-03-29T22:49:00.005+08:00

After delaying for the longest time, I finally met up with my Darling girl yesterday! :D Hehehe. I woke up pretty early yesterday, at around eight and lazed around before I finally pulled myself out of the bed to get prepared. Left home at 9.15 and the bus arrived as soon as I reached the bus stop :D Hehehe. Love my estimation :b HAHA. Was supposed to meet Jonathan at 10 but he reached five minutes earlier and me being the usual me, was late :/ Well, the fault lies with the bus. There's nothing I can do right!! :x Hehehe.

From AMK we took a train to TPY for Macs breakfast :B Ate at CRC Macs and we kind of wasted time there :/ While stoning there, we disturbed some uncles sitting nearby by eavesdropping their conversation. Hahahahahaha :x While I was about to psycho him to accompany to somewhere near FTP and Rachel's block, I realized my Darling has been spamming me with phone calls :$ Hehehehe. So we sat around Macs to wait for the girl. Hehe. And the boy left as soon as she arrived so we walked back to school :) While walking back, Rachel tried the tarts and she loved the chocolate tarts. Of course I'm happy about it because at least it's appreciated right!!! HAHAHAHA. Personally I felt that everything sucked but Jonathan and Rachel kept telling me it's alright and the chocolate tart was not too bad. Though it's not fantastic but I'm contented. It wasn't entirely my hard work anyway :x

Took our SGC and had some talks with Mr Muthu :D I had a small talk with Mr Lim too while he was walking back to the office. Went to canteen to get some drinks and also play around with my Polaroid :) Met Kim Yan to pass her the films for Christabel. Thank you sweet child (L) :D Gave them my coconut sweets too. Must share the love right? HAHAHAHAA ^.^ Left FTP not long later and we headed to Orchard :) Walked around and went to Guess. Had my eyes set on one wallet before we continued looking around. Decided to have Tori Q and when we were about to walk to Tangs for it, I interrupted my own conversation and jumped up telling Darl, "THERE!! TORI Q!" I felt like some insane girl for one moment but it's okay. I'm with my closest girl and she's seen me at my worst :x

We stoned there for awhile after eating. It's been far too long since we last met to the extent that neither of us knew where to begin with. There's just so much to say! :( Went to collect my items at 2.30 then we continued walking around :) From Ion we trained to Somerset and walked to Heeren then made our way to Cineleisure :D Bought an anklet there when I wanted to show her the wristlet I mentioned to her months ago! :) Nothing else caught our eyes and we went to Red Mango. That's when we spammed Polaroid shots and also did many stupid faces. HAHAHAHA. What can you expect, when it's just us two? ;) Yup, in the end we didn't make a cake from Icing Room. I find it a waste of money and I'd rather spend quality time with my Darling this way :b

Bought Gong Cha and we went to Wisma :) I bought a Guess wallet there but it's not the first one which I saw. I liked the one I saw from the Guess shop because the ribbon made it really sweet but the studs was pretty much a spoiler. Plus there's only 6 compartments for cards! :( Saw a nice wristlet too. Ahhh, money. But I got only the wallet in the end and yes that's how I spent my money. But well, it's something that I'd have to spend on ^.^ Oh yes before that, we went to FEP too :) Walked round and round yet we got nothing. Teehee.

Re-bounced train and I alighted at AMK to take a bus home because I didn't want to be caught in a crowd and stand throughout the journey since my legs were hurting :/ So yup, that sums up my Monday. I love meeting Rachel because I'd always be able to tell her my worries and show her everything. I meant like literally okay. We always have talks about things you'd never think of. Honestly. Pervertic, totally private, family affairs, anything! No fear, no need shy. Bung siol! HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA.

Today is the day where all the emotions were evoked and set in. I cried. But I'm feeling better. I wanted to blog it out but things have reached a point where I just need a listening ear and I just need a person to share it with me. Nothing else matters. I don't need another person to understand me :)

I love you, those who stood by me. I love you, those who have appreciated me. I love you, those who cheered me on. Hehehehe.

OH AND I MET JEANNIE ON SUNDAY!!!!

More to come. More Polaroid shots with my babes! Xoxo.

In times like that, I wonder if I should be hating my brother or not. Really....

What if I fell for you?

Fatty Bom Bom

2011-03-26T22:59:00.007+08:00

I am still on an online shopping spree. I just can't resist indulging myself into beautiful things.... And food. Sadly. Sigh. I keep eating and growing wider and wider. Please skip this paragraph because I'm going to whine to my content again. HAHAHAHA. But honestly, I'm green with envy when it comes to those people who are slim :( Why is it so unfair?! Yes yes, I'm fat, so? :) You may consider suing my parents for that because honestly except for my eldest brother, nobody is slim and thin ._. We're all wider and bigger in size. This just runs in our blood. I've got no say, honey :b So yes I've given up I surrender to fate. I'm not gonna try hard. Take me as I am or watch me as I go :D Hehe.

At times I wish I'm still active but well I chose this path ah :) Hehehe. And even back then I was still bigger -.- Even as child.... I was the fattest ah. I shall show you an evidence, at the bottom of this post! HAHA. Okay so all these aside.........

Last night was the worst because just when I was about to sleep, I heard some weird noises like fluttering wings trying to open my windows. I know it sounds impossible but I swear it's true!! I was so afraid that I didn't want to sleep so I ended up..... Splurging online. Yes, I did -.- The noise didn't stop after 30 minutes and it got louder instead. The first thing that came into my mind was....

WAH SIAN CAN YOU STOP IT OR NOT.

HAHAHAHA really!! So I was telling Jonathan about it and how upset I was because I kept spending money. LOL! And I asked him to console me. Hahahahaha wtf, I know right. He immediately called me and told me that there's nothing at all I'm imagining things for he's the one outside my window so I should head to bed now. This boy here, full of nonsense. I swear. HAHAHAHAHA.

So I finally got tired at like 2 am odd in the morning and I woke up at eight plus ._. Actually. Nothing much to blog about for today. But, I'm going to have my baking class tomorrow. Super excited!!!! I'm gonna make.............................

Lemon Meringue Tart, Chocolate Tart and Tart Tartini ^.^ Meeting my dear girl after everything so it'd be around evening time. Finally, after so long!!! So much to talk about to her tomorrow man!! (L)

I'd be meeting the busiest boy I ever met on Monday for breakfast then I'm gonna force him to keep me accompany until my Darling girl is back at Toa Payoh before we head back to FTP together for our Graduation Certificate :D Looking forward!!!! And I'd be borrowing FatFat's camera tomorrow since I like his :b

Oh and another reason why I'd be highly anticipating Monday is because of the (failed) surprise Rachel planned for me :) Hehe.

See, even as a child I'm already so ~~chubby~~fat. And short. So don't compare me with others.

No Love Lost, No Love Found

2011-03-23T22:03:00.002+08:00

Today is the worst day ever and I'm really thankful for having a cousin; a big brother like Keith. As always. I felt so scared and I got all upset on the journey home that I had difficulties breathing. Thank god Keith replied my message so I immediately rang him up :x I had no idea why but yup I just broke down as soon as he answered my call and he got worried for that instant :/ Hehehehe.

Actually, there's nothing for me to blog about ah.... :( Meeting my Darling girl in April if she's free to come out on Sunday, before my Poly starts :D Thankful for people who've been accompanying me through texts these days. Especially one lazy boy ;) Ha ha ha!

There's so much of things kept inside I feel so troubled but I don't know who to tell them to......

A part of me doesn't want to let it go. A part of me still want to hold on and have a certain hope. But the faith is lost. The trust is broken. The courage is gone. I can't possible expect all of us to remain this way forever. We have to move on and get going. Good luck. Loves :)

Online Temptations

2011-03-21T21:29:00.006+08:00

I have this dying urge to blog but I've got nothing to blog about at all :/ I lead an extremely monotonous life and I rot my days away~ Oh, I have something to blog about now! Hehe, since I fell asleep before midnight yesterday and couldn't struggle to stay awake to blog! ^.^

Yesterday was actually my first baking lesson!!! ^.^ Happy kid at the end of the day. I started off feeling nervous and a little excited for it but it got better as the time passed by :) Daddy fetched me to Toa Payoh during the noon to pass Christine her films first before we had lunch at Ghim Moh :D

I made Chocolate Mousse Cake and the feedbacks I've gotten so far were rather positive! JieJie said it's bitter but the top layer was made of pure dark chocolate so I guess it's ok :D Of course, I made another dessert too but I'm keeping it a secret because it's going to be a present for my Darling girl. I'd divulge it during late May ok :D Hehehehe~ I'm as excited as Rachel now! HAHAAHAH!

Do take a look at http://lovetemperature.blogspot.com okay!! There's so many things that I'm eyeing for~ Like the foldable waterbottle, and the bags!! The vintage bag caught my attention but nah, it's so not my type. I can't pull off those elegant looks. On the day I got my Polaroid camera, my brother-in-law wanted to get me the foldable waterbottle too! I forgot the price but it was definitely above $10! That blogshop is actually selling it at $6.50! Insanity or extremity!? Mad cute please!!!!

I repeat, I'm not a fan of hello kitty. I just have a fetish for things I find cute. Well, who doesn't? :D Considering to get a hello kitty oversized hoodie! HAHAHAHA. Okay random post~ Looking forward to 27th March for my next baking lesson! It's going to be tarts ;)

Life has been good. Eating and rolling my life away. Yawns.

I have recently been hooked onto Fuckin' Perfect by Pink. IT'S A MUST LISTEN AND MUST DOWNLOAD! GO SEARCH FOR IT NOW IF YOU HAVEN'T! :D MUAHAHAHAAHAH. Dance with My Father is a nice song too :) Search for it on YouTube, it's the first video link!

"Pretty pretty please if you ever ever feel like you're nothing, you're fucking perfect to me. "

Seventeenth

2011-03-19T23:59:00.004+08:00

Actually there's nothing much for me to post about because today is like any ordinary day with the exception that I had family dinner at night and it wasn't at Ah Yat Seafood Restaurant. Instead, we had dinner at Park Hotel for the International Buffet and honestly.... It wasn't even worth the money. But my dad and sister-in-law could get 50% discount though. Hehe.

If there's even anyone reading this post, I sincerely thank you for wishing me a happy birthday be it through SMS, Twitter, Facebook, MSN or phone calls! (L)

It's a really simple day today, and needless to say, so was the celebration. But I still enjoyed the dinner. I kept taking sushi, biscuit, bread and desserts :x I did take a little of oyster, scallop, fish and meat but I got bored after one round of them :/ Hehe. I'd be looking forward to my date with my Darling girl because it's going to be a special one and I believe we'd spam photos ;) Hehehe. See you during April~

I'd be having my baking course starting for tomorrow and 10th April would be the last day! Muahahaha~ I'm a little keen in learning how to bake bread too but maybe not for now. Desserts like chocolate mousse cake and parfaits would be of a better choice :B

Yesterday my sister-in-law accompanied me at EPM for the whole day and basically we talked about everything and anything ;) Hehehe. ThinThin came to pick us up at night after we had our dinner and we headed to Loyang's temple first :) I'm not sure if it's true or not but at least I tried and left no rooms for regret. I guess it's just my wishful thinking but at least I asked and prayed. Nah, I'm not upset :) I hope all the other prayers would come true. Please! ><

I honestly think I'm really lucky. My family members may not show their concern obviously but I know they care. They never fail to be soft-hearted when it comes to me and they'd always be worried. Just take yesterday for an example. ThinThin fetched me home and alighted me at the bus-stop but I had to walk one big round because the stairs was blocked due to some construction work. There was two teenagers looking at me and gave me a smile when I got off the car but I was too engrossed in my phone to even notice them. ThinThin saw their expression and drove really slowly with his eyes fixed on them until I went to the lift. Cute or cute?! Hahahahaha. I'm not trying to indirectly say I'm pretty, attractive or whatnot. I'm just trying to say my siblings often say harsh words and act like they don't care but deep down, they care more than anyone else :P

Let Your Colours Burst

2011-03-17T21:45:00.006+08:00

Hello I'm a happy kid because my birthday is in a few days' time!!!! :D :D :D But I'm sad because I can start rolling already. Woho~ FML, yes indeed. Didn't blog for the past few nights because I was still angry of the internet. I keep getting disconnected after an hour or so and I'd have to restart this whole damned laptop before I can connect back. What nonsense, seriously.

I'm more active on Twitter now and yesssss, the films which I ordered online have all arrived! :D I ordered the Instax Color films from a blogshop too and I made payment through iBanking two days ago, during midnight. Their service is so efficient to the extent that I actually got my goods yesterday! :D You've no idea how ecstatic I was! I got a Polaroid album too and no, I'm not going to stop at just this one album! I am greedy and I want ALL the other colours~ I'm eyeing the green one next :P Muahahaha! Very unlike me but I got the hot pink one first :b

Would be heading to shop with my sister-in-law tomorrow :D Hehe. When we are together, we talk and gossip non-stop! I'm not trying to brag here. I'm just saying. I feel really proud of my family. No, I don't have the best. I'm not well-mannered. I am filled with flaws. But I like the strong bond we have. Nobody is ever left out. Ohana means family. Family means nobody gets left behind :) (L) At times I feel so lonely but gah, I'm all out of love I've gotten tired of love. Love isn't a feeling. Nor is it just a word. It's a commitment, a promise, a sacrifice, your life, a reason to look forward to every day, a joy, a gift. I don't think I'm prepared for it. I guess it's a cycle? The person I fell for isn't interested in me and vice versa. Yawns~

I actually have a lot of things which I wanted to blog about but I forgot what was it. Hehehe :B Well, I'm leading a happy life for now. I guess that's sufficient :D I miss my bitch darling though :( I'm really thankful to have her~ She accepts my flaws. Whether it's my personality, or physical attributes. During wee hours of the day when I can't get to sleep, she'd listen to my crap even though she has her problems too. My sister and brother-in-law are always concerned about me. I may bring disappointment to them all the time but I never see them giving up on me. At times I feel really inferior, casted aside, crying out loud. But I know they're just pulling my leg and they just wanna lighten the tense atmosphere. I love all of you~

Darling, here's a paragraph for you. Don't leave any rooms for regret anymore, ok? :) I know you don't like people to nag at you and you're stubborn. You've a mind of your own. So prove to everyone that you're aware of your actions, you're responsible. Please? Let this mistake be the last time you're going to behave like a foolish kid ok! I'm glad you'd think about saving up now and think of an alternative. No worries, I'd help you if it's within my ability ok! Just like the Polaroid ^.^ It's my baby too but I know it's safe in your hands right! Muahahaaha. Thank you for always being so understanding! I'm always myself when I'm with you, be it physically or mentally. I can be a kid, be a muddle head, be a bitch, an angel or a devil. My true self; with you around :P Jiayou!

We're going to have a family dinner on Saturday night to celebrate my birthday and it's at Park Hotel :D Hehehe. I don't look forward to many wishes but the thought of my babies remembering it perks me up :D I somehow wish for something to happen but nope a voice at the back of my head is reminding me....

FAT HOPE!

:( But it's okay. I'm a Pisces which means I'm excused for being a dreamer :) Okay I shall upload more pictures, if I can find some to upload :D Oh yes, I've been rearranging the photos on my stick pad every now and then. Ha! Waiting to meet my darling girl some time during April due to some problems. Spam Polaroid films! Muahahaha! :D The other day, someone commented that Keeven and I look cute alike. She must be kidding me right............

Everyone else said we don't have similarities. Well, except for chubby cheeks. My baby fats and I since young plus Keeven is still a little boy~ Okay actually this post was supposed to be up quite some time ago but........ Upon seeing my primary one photo, I started conversing with Sarah through Twitter and oh nooooo~ I couldn't stop. HAHAHAHAHA. Okay I shall upload the photos~ ^.^ Ok I must say... I damn fat now sia! Sian. Sad for life but then again no there's nothing to be sad of. It runs in my blood seriously. Just have a look at my whole family. I'm not pushing the blame or anything. But it's true :b

Chanced upon someone saying... "My friend told me that they all always called 1 Hibiscus the class of pretty girls." PRETTY GIRLS SIOL HAHAHAHA. And yes for your information, I was from Primary 1 Hibiscus (The name of the class sounds stupid but it's unique :D) so there you go, in your face! HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAAHAH I cannot stop laughing at this. Continue scrolling down for entertainment~

Left: After product. Right: Raw Polaroid album.

Left: Lavinia and I. Right: I'm the 2nd girl on the right of my teacher in the middle, facing left~

Xoxo!

Eccedentesiast

2011-03-13T01:05:00.008+08:00

You've no idea how much I need a hug right now....

Sorry for the lack of updates! Hehe. The internet decided to be stubborn and not cooperate with me when I had the urge to blog the other night so I hit the sacks instead :x I have been meeting Keith frequently over the past few days because he's the only free soul I can think of. Not only so, but since he's my big brother and he's going to sacrifice his time to HTA soon, he decided to be nice and keep me accompanied when I needed someone. Muahahaha~ I keep asking him out at the very last minute but he never rejects me. Sweet or sweet? :P

Well, there's nothing much for me to blog actually. Just that I feel very unhappy with myself. Physically and mentally ._. Zz. But it's okay, school's starting soon. I know what I'm doing and that's enough. I just have to work towards it. :) I met Keith at six plus today for dinner and I cried my heart out. Felt so much better. Thank you (L) This sweet pie actually bought a bowl of dessert to cheer me up and guess what was the reason behind buying that particular dessert!

The answer is..................... Because it's coconut and my coconut candies perk me up! Wapiang!!! We actually ended up spending quite an amount of money at Prize Stage after dinner and he caught me a Hello Kitty!! :D I'm not a fan of Hello Kitty, but I'm a fan of cute plush toys ^.^ And I got a Melody too! Hehe~ Walked around and bought my things at Watsons before we sat outside Dhoby for awhile. Me being me, I disturbed his friend while they were on the line :x

"Sibei irritating leh you!" LOL! I like this sentence! HAHAHAHA. Not bad okay, people keep saying I'm cute :B Muahahahaha~ Wouldn't be able to meet Rachel this week. Again :( Sorry babe, next week or something okay? I'm not sure how soon can we meet up anymore now but I promise when there's time, I'd date you out. I know you understand and you wouldn't blame me or be unreasonable but I feel so bad. But that's also why you're my darling because you know me so well! HAHAHAHA. I have so much to tell you and it's been so long we talked on MSN, honey! See you online soon okay (L)

I was indeed in despair earlier today but after pouring it out and having fun with Keith, I feel a little better. Thank you so much!! And sorry for making you splurge so much all the time :/ You're going in soon and I don't know if I'd blog again or not so please take care okay! Remember to text me when you have the time!! :D I'm going to miss a brother like you :( No motives and whatnot. Just pure sibling love, care and concern showered on me. Muahahaha :B For the first two weeks you wouldn't be able to book out, I really don't know who can I find! :( Someone I can tell everything to and they wouldn't find me a nuisance. Ah... :( Please get a substitute to replace you for the time being!! :x I don't know when I'd be able to see you again and chances are there may not be any chance to meet you so easily since my school would be starting soon too unless..... Yeh. See you during June, when I have my short break, ok? :D Zi char for dinner!! Find some people over ok~ We eat at Punggol Plaza! LOL! Because I am small kid and it's not safe for little girl to travel around alone so I win~

Of course I'm not complaining that my darling is neglecting me. But how could I be selfish? :) Trust me. I can see she is trying to do her part as a girlfriend, and good friend. I just don't want to trouble her when we both know I can rely on my cousin for now. Hehe :P I miss you, bitch. Don't see a need to blog about negative things and I haven't been updating my personal life on twitter of late. I guess some things need not be shared at all.

I feel quite upset and depressed actually. Feel damn fat like a ball! But then again I can't do anything about it. This runs in my blood, I can't be petite. Well, I actually can if I have eating disorder. Sick ass.

Here's some pictures to keep you entertained~

Surprises

2011-03-08T13:50:00.003+08:00

I have nothing to blog about these few days because I don't know what should I blog about :( I met Kim Yan on Saturday and it was an impromptu date :) Had dinner at Pastamania while walking around at Junction 8 :D Went to TPC since I promised Keeven to get him a toy boat :P Stayed over at KY's place and we had Macs for supper! Muahahaha. Bundle meal~ It's been some time :D

Nua-ed on the bed for the whole day on Sunday because we slept at 5-ish and woke up really early. Ate three packets of tidbits before I took a nap. Heheheh :P Woke up and had lunch there. KY's mother cooked porridge! ^.^ Finally pulled myself up and went for my medical checkup in the evening. Was feeling so forlorn for the whole day and preoccupied. Tsk.

Keith came to Punggol to find me in the night and he got me KOI! :D :D :D :D I grinned from ear to ear! He also bought me a cow shirt (-.-) and a tofu to put my phone~ Muahahaha :D I was jubilant because he took the effort to look for me at night, from Bugis! What's more, he took a cab to look for his friend after talking to me for 30 minutes. Where to find this kind of big brother, you tell me?! :P But this big brother of mine have to report to HTA on 15th March :(

Yesterday was supposedly the deadline for my submission of envelopes in the enrollment package but I wasn't even ready at all! :/ Had to make a trip down to clarify and because it was super last minute and I didn't want to be alone, I called....... KEITH PANG!!! ^.^ He just reached home and because it's me (I'm living in a delusional world and I'm proud of it) he came out again and met me at Tampines!!! :D :D :D :D

We took a bus to TP to clear my doubts :B I'd have to submit my enrollment package things by next Monday. Boooo! Had brunch at the food court of TM before I met JieJie and she got an iPhone 4! I feel so upset now because my iPhone is in a horrible state. I think I'd try to have a 1-to-1 exchange since my warranty would be up... Soon. No harm trying, no? :P My aim shall be iPhone 5. Hehehehe. And my brother-in-law is going to get an iPhone 4 next month so Keeven would be able to play the 3GS! :x

Have to get a lot of things done tomorrow. Sigh. Got to trim my fringe. The picture above was taken during CNY and my fringe was already covering my eyes. What about now? ._. Have been eating and sleeping like no tomorrow and I've put on 15 kg. HAHAHAHA okay I was just kidding it isn't so bad BUT I did put on A LOT of weight and I'm in despair. Hai.........

Do You Know What's Worth Fighting For

2011-03-04T23:11:00.002+08:00

Almost everything brings me back to the past and I can't make up my mind. I'm physically in the present but mentally, I'm stuck with memories. I have been getting nothing but paper cuts recently and I have no idea how I got them. But it's not significant either so it's okay :)

Have been eating and eating and eating I feel so hideous now. Sigh. Guess I'd be helping JieJie with her shop these few days. I have yet to go for my medical checkup for TP. What a hassle ._. Maybe I'd get it done on Sunday. Should I pay him a visit at TTSH? Well, Darl convinced me to. I should probably drop by and not give myself a chance to regret. ECP or out with family on Sunday? Hmm, think I'd pick the former.

I have no idea what to blog about seriously, now that I lead a mundane lifestyle. Quite sad to say that people these days are lacking of humor. Or maybe my jokes are seriously too cold. My "eyes" are melting. With so many "hot" people around in this already "well-known" tropical Singapore, it just makes thing worse. I should start scrimping and saving for a wheelchair now. Get it? I doubt you do. HAHA.

On a lighter note, it doesn't really matter because those who are really close to me gets them. :) You need to hone your skills, honey~ I was seething today because I realized that the films I order were much cheaper today. NNH!!!! It was 499 for 4 pkts yesterday and now it's 455 for 4 pkts CAN YOU FEEL MY ANGER?!?! I reckon you felt my boiling blood ^.^

Dirt Cheap Grabs

2011-03-03T23:46:00.002+08:00

If you have been following me faithfully on Twitter you'd already have known by now that I was contemplating if I should get the normal plain white borders Polaroid films or Disney ones. And yes, in the end I convinced myself to get the Disney ones even though it'd be less worthy when I break it down BUT AT LEAST..... I get to save $36!! Muahahaha~ And that's what matters most. Dead serious!!! Those colourful borders films are so expensive. What a daylight robbery :( Oh wait, it's midnight robbery! So I decided that I'd get people to buy me the plain films for my birthday to make up for my "loss". Smart or smart. HAHAHA. Former or latter, it doesn't matter ^.^ Hehehee.

Keeven has been asking me to take photos with him using my Polaroid because he enjoys the whole process from the flash to the film coming out to the colours appearing and finally his cute expression! :B Such a dear boy~ Might be meeting Keith on Tuesday. Well, I hope he wouldn't be lazy so he'd come over to Punggol and we can slack around at night~ :P Hello cousin if you do see this post, I just want to say thank you for pampering me so much!! I'm really so grateful for you to be there for me, always! Okay not for sixteen going seventeen years of my life but I know I can always turn to you when I really want to cry, vent my anger on you when I'm on the verge of exploding and share with you my joy!! Hehehe. You're a big brother I don't know what good deeds have I done in my past life which made me deserve you! (L)

I can roll on the floor now. Don't even have to walk. Miseryyyyyyyyyyyyy.

BYE! :D

Saudade

2011-03-02T23:42:00.003+08:00

Today is the day my little cute pie turns two. He was beaming from ear to ear when we (my sister, brother-in-law, eldest brother and I) sang him a birthday song! Hehehe. And yes, I finally used up my last packet of Polaroid films. I chose to use it last because the theme of it is Mickey and I wanted to use it for Keeven since it's his favourite. Hehehe :D

I'm still feeling upset because I really feel like a ball now. Ugh. But then again, it's okay because I know no matter how fugly I become, I still have my Rachel Yong that would never mind my appearance, right? :P Muahahaha. Sorry darling, I'm not able to meet you tomorrow. I know you're having a hard time now. But you know I'm always available if you need a ear. I can't just leave the shop closed as and when I want but I can always meet you up at night to slack and chill around if you want to :) Provided you're not putting the following school day at risk :)

I'd be starting school soon which means I wouldn't be able to keep helping out at the shop. It's going to be tough for my sister. I hope a miracle would happen. Sigh. Money is the root of all evil? It is an essential to survive. Damn.

Look at things on a more positive note. It'd take a turn, for the better.

Shall blog again. Heh. Xoxo :)

True Friends Stab You At The Front

2011-03-01T23:08:00.004+08:00

Today turned out to be a really bad day for me. To make it worse, it's only the first day of March.... I don't know what am I supposed to expect for the remaining thirty days. I woke up with a horrifyingly dreadful dream and that kick-started my whole day for today. I kept having negative thoughts and I have this urge to run away from everything. I feel like I'm breaking down any moment, soon. I really need someone but I don't know who to find. I know I still have Rachel but you know I'm greedy. I meant more than just a friend/good friend/enemy/best friend and whatnot.

Tomorrow is Keeven's birthday and he's turning two but this small boy doesn't know what's so great about birthday. Yet. Ha ha ha :) I am feeling forlorn now because my pants are getting tighter like seriously I swear. Diet never works out for me and seriously drop the idea of telling me to jog. Over my dead body! Ha! The thought of jogging puts me to sleep instantly. Okay I lied. It's the nausea moment after a jog no matter how short the distance is that turns me down. Blame my body for being so greedy when it comes to blood :)

Champ At The Bit

2011-02-28T23:55:00.002+08:00

I can't wait for 20th March now because I'd be having my first baking class and....... I'm going to quickly search for a swimming class so I'd know how to swim soon! Muahahah :D I'd opt to forgo butterfly stroke so I won't have broad shoulders ^.^ Hehehehe. Which means I wouldn't have to be dejected anymore just because I have an ailment when it comes to jogging. Teehee :P

I don't know what to blog but I'm really champing at the bit! Hehehehehe :B

Slumberous

2011-02-27T22:02:00.002+08:00

I woke up at 11.56 am today and I didn't get to play with Keeven because he was about to take his nap :/ So I lazed around on the bed until I heard him crying and it was already 1.15! Quickly bathed, had breakfast and prepared to leave home. Swear I can't be even more punctual than today. I reached PS at 2.30 sharp! Tsk. Rushed to MWL for the Sizzix 101 class and was done before 5.30 :) Had my late lunch at the food court because my sister and brother-in-law brought Keeven to look for me :D

We went to Basement 1 after eating to buy fried chicken back. Cheesy curry chicken and KKW's 鸡扒 :D That's all for today. Most probably going to meet Rachel on Wednesday and I'd be getting some gifts ^.^ Hehe. Still getting excited for my 4 weeks of baking class! And.........

School starts on 25th April for me :) TP!

Carpe Diem

2011-02-26T23:42:00.005+08:00

Happy Eighteenth Birthday, Charmaine Soh! :D I love you and I miss you! It's been so long since we last talked on phone and I miss those times we used to talk to each other till wee hours of the days :( Remember how we met? Haha! The best memories we all had together as one group would definitely be our conference calls, prank calls, Audition days, and those outings we had. I hope you had a great time with your friends today babe!

Today was unlike any other days. And I'm officially starting my baking class on 20th March! Hehehe :P Rachel Yong one day you shall leave JT alone and come my place for a night so we can bake and catch up more ok :P Hehehehe. I miss you and the times we used to meet almost every day! I suddenly miss those days during O's. The moments we had nobody else but each other, to ourselves, despite the unhappiness and tears we've all shed. Well, all these made us stronger, and closer, accepting each other's flaws :) Love you! Thank you for always being here no matter what comes in between.

I am still wondering.......... SHOULD I LEARN SWIMMING? Should I?!?!? :( :( :( I must confess I keep eating for this whole week! I feel hungry every hour or two! I am growing rounder and rounder. Sigh. But no, I won't jog and neither can I jog. HA! I'd feel nausea and it's a total turn off so I decided to cancel jogging off my list. It does more harm than good at this rate. So how? Should I take up swimming to replace jogging? :x Maybe I should try to ask my JieJie next week and see what she thinks too! Hehe. Shall try to get everything settled by next weekends ^.^

My eyes are half shut while I'm typing this post but I'm still struggling. Tomorrow would be a stay home morning because I need to attend a class to learn some things at town in the noon :B Would be meeting JieJie and my brother-in-law together with Keeven perhaps, after the class ^.^ While waiting for Kelvin KorKor to come pick us up today, JieJie and I went to Giordano and we bought a "family shirt"! HAHAHAHA. Yes Darling this is what I wanted to tell you!!! We all got a piece of yellow polo tee and JieJie is a member of Giordano now~ HEHEHEHE. My brother-in-law and sister are going to bring me out to shop for my clothes next Sunday!! ^^ So we won't be opening shop next week! :D Keeven would be coming along too and we're all going to wear the same top.

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAA

That was a nice fact. HEHEHEHE. I finally finished watching "Hajime No Ippo: New Challenger" few days back. Was talking to my brother-in-law about it and he told me this is one of the longest manga ever! Dragonball has only 30+ books while this has 90+! I want to read it all! :x I finally found a place selling my Polaroid film at a cheaper rate and it's nearby! I'm on cloud nine~

At times I wonder, if family stands for "Father And Mother, I Love You", then maybe that's why I don't have a perfect family. Mine is broken because I'm really grateful to my sister and brother-in-law. Who else would worry about me more than them? Yes, I have all the freedom I want to do things. I get what I want at the beck of my call and my dad tries to give me what I want. I'm very fortunate, no doubt. But at times, what you want is just that care and concern. The warmth a family gives when you're feeling cold. This is something my father can never show. Maybe it's because of our generation gap. My daddy is going to be in his sixties soon. He's really old. But I must admit, he still has his sweet side. It's just that my family is really too complicated. Things are way deeper than what you see.

I told JieJie about my interest today and she gave me her support. She said we'd work towards that as my goal together. I'm feeling so touched now. You know that feeling? The feeling of getting support from people around you. They don't even bother mentioning things like, "What if it fails?" They give me their support, and hope I'd get something out of it. It makes a whole lot of difference and gives me so much of courage.

So many people's birthday coming soon and I've already got a rough idea what I want to get for each one of them! Hehehe :P

Once In A Blue Moon

2011-02-24T23:59:00.002+08:00

I think I forgot to mention that I rushed home quickly after JieJie told me that there may be a kitten sleeping outside the house yesterday night. But to my disappointment, (LOL I sound like I'm writing a compo here now. Yes, I miss school!) I brisk walked from the lift to my corridor only to realize that the kitten was missing :( All I spotted was JieJie's key on the lock of the gate........... *plays melodramatic gloomy music*

When I left home this morning I saw the cute little kitty by the stairs and I was jubilant!! I took some snapshots of it but it was blur because I stood quite a distance from it. No, I'm not someone who'd risk myself and get near any animals, be it stray or domestic. I have a soft spot for animals but I have this phobia injected in me too. Well, I wouldn't know if the animal is well tamed or not, would I?! :P My JieJie and I are world's apart. She has a soft spot for animals and wouldn't keep her distance. Which means.... Yes, she managed to get nicer shots of Febby~

I have an elder brother called Fabian. His nickname is Fabby. And this kitten is called Febby. Hehehehehehehehe. AND HERE IS WHERE THE MOST HEART-WRENCHING NEWS IS GOING TO BE BROKEN TO YOU.........................

*Plays drama heartbroken music with background music of shattered glass*

We were all determined to adopt Febby. I swear!! But it was given to JieJie's colleague in the end. My brother-in-law's mother was grumbling with no intention to stop until she saw Febby being taken away. And it really caused great sorrow to me... Ugh. Okay it's not very nice to be airing my dirty linens out in the public, is it? I feel better now in any case, after sharing it with some people! Heehaw.

I hope my phone is alright or I have to cook up some excuse and reason to make Singtel have a 1 to 1 exchange for my iPhone. Sigh.

Can't wait for Poly to begin now! Hehehe. I'm still wondering.... Should I highlight or dye my hair? Should I even pick up make up? I'm intending to get a weekend part-time job together with Peony so we can have some income while we study! ^.^ There's so much of things I'd want to do but........................

WHERE GOT TIME?! Nah, you must be kidding me. That's secondary.

TALK IS CHEAP. HAHAHA. MY WORDS ARE WORTHLESS.

Keeven's birthday is next Wednesday! And I'd most probably be meeting Rachel for buffet! Happy kid~ :D I guess I'd get him his present while I'm out too. This also means that I'm turning seventeen in no time. Ah..... It feels like time flew by.

OH AND I HAVE YET TO MENTION........... The cat seems to be a pure breed! Heard from my sister's friend that it's really rare to get a cat with a ear flapped down. Febby's EARS are BOTH flapped DOWN! Cool or whut!? But well :( This little kitty is really pitiful. It's mute :( :( :(

Isn't it adorableeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee?

BYE! :D

But I Tried

2011-02-23T23:43:00.002+08:00

Initial plan for today was to head to Buona Vista to collect my Edusave Merit Bursary before meeting Adelind but since MOE called me before eleven and said that it's possible for them to mail the cheque to me, I agreed :P Save myself a long trip down to BV and let the horribly overcharged adult fare extort my money. Met Adelind in the noon at Dhoby for lunch at Astons! :D Cheap and good, hehehe. Let's go there for a meal one day okay Rachel Yong!! ^.^

Took a train to Orchard and walked to FEP :) Bought an outerwear, a belt and a knee-length pants. Felt so depressed but then Rachel made me feel better, as usual. HAHA. Blame my awful genes!!!! :( :( :( Oh and while at FEP, I kept buying drinks! I have no idea why but I kept feeling thirsty :x We decided to walk back to Ion so we could take the train and go separate ways. Coincidentally bumped into Wai Meng at Tangs so we accompanied him for lunch and talked a little. He walked us to the MRT station and we stood there for awhile to talk. Might be able to get myself a job for the upcoming IT fair! :D Hehehe. Not confirmed yet though.

Met Peony at Tampines and during the journey there, I was god damn infuriated. Zz! We went to see her cameras and after much hesitation, she finally got Samsung ST600! :P The colour is so much better than mine! Well, how much can you expect from a lousier camera? Heh! Had dinner at Pastamania before we went to Century Square to chill around. The whole toilet was infested with nymphs. Honestly. Talk about Singapore being the cleanest country? Ha! I'm feeling itchy all over again now. Sigh. But it's impossible to deny Singapore is definitely a clean and green country. As compared to the others....

I'm feeling so devastated but I'd get over it. It's your loss! You ruined everything up three fucking times. You don't deserve to have me at all. Because there's guys out there who can do it so much better than you. Without even trying so hard. And there's also so many others who know how to safe keep my heart better than you do. You're just one failure~

Give Me The Night To Show You

2011-02-21T23:59:00.000+08:00

Today was a really long day but I'm feeling so much better. I felt so gloomy yesterday and because I couldn't take it any longer, I rang Keith up at night. I was so glad he was free to talk to me on phone even if it was just awhile. He listened to me sob and was all worried. This boy is so sweet! Hehehe. He was even asking if I'd like to meet him since "he was meeting a friend at Punggol" too. Ha! He was actually on the way to Cine to catch a movie! :P When Rachel knew I cried badly, she gave me a call before I slept at night and we chatted till I laughed and she felt more relieved so we hung up. Am I right to say that you care for me and was worried all the way? I reckon you was! HAHAHA. Yes that's me, thick skinned as always! :B Let's "gong cha" soon honey!!!

Life is so unpredictable. And hey. I found who are the ones I want to keep as my good friends. I lost some, I gained some. But whether they're still with me or not. I'm still treasuring them. They'd always be my babies and I would never let them get hurt. Very thick skin and it could be a one party thing but well. I still see Rachel as my breastfriend because too bad she is mine. Muahahaha. Yes, face it. We have a shitty attitude. We bitched about each other, back stabbed each other, mocked at each other. And don't forget. We stood by each other.

"Shawty is a eenie meenie miney mo lova....."

My little boy loves this song and dances to the rhythm of it! Hehehe. Recently, I was very sentimental. I still am though. Well, that's me anyway ^.^ I'm turning seventeen soon. No plans, no nothing. Sigh :( Lonely girl, yes. I have no friends. Why? But in times of need, I have lovely little sweet pies appearing before me, supporting me. I yearn for buffet............ Ah :(

It Can't Be

2011-02-20T20:48:00.004+08:00

This month seems to be pretty long. Chinese New Year and Valentine's were celebrated just days/weeks ago but it seemed like a month back already. Have been going through many emotional rides these days. I say that I'm fine, I'm barely affected. But truth is, it hurts even more than what I've been through in the past. Because it's you. Not because you betrayed me or whatnot. But because you left. I said I'd not blame you. Believe it or not, I'm serious. You are what I call a good friend. You know I'd definitely not leave you in lurch but be there for you always. I'm convincing myself that you have your reasons. I just wonder... Are you equally hurt? Do you even feel upset. Because I see that it doesn't matter at all. Yeh, seems like I never did. It's okay. Just so you know, my impression of you doesn't change. Because you mean so much to me honey. And all these are from the bottom of my heart... You're not like any other. You're just so special to me.

While everyone grew, I'm still stuck in the past. It's time to move on now. Thank you so much, Rachel Yong ♥ You're not just a friend to me. You're like a darling, a sister, a best friend, a good friend, an enemy, a bitch. An angel, yet a devil. The irony. Maybe it's because we quarrelled, we argued, we backstabbed, we bitched, we laughed, we cried, we had our fair share of memories, together. We don't have the deepest memories, we never did anything great together. We aren't perfect. People say we are two-headed, bitchy and whatnot. But you still stood by me, still fought for me, still felt for me in times like this. I really thank you so much for everything especially these few months. No, we didn't started off being on good terms. We bitched about each other like a slut and all. But, so? You accept my flaws, my bitch attitude, my arrogance. You tried to understand me and compromise too. It takes two hands to clap and here we are, right now :)

It takes two hands to clap and nobody is perfect. I have the worst attitude you can ever get from a girl. I'm not a simple person. But I still thank those who really try to understand me, and are willing to be here for me. Always. Just a phone call, and I know I'm not alone. Thank you, babies!

It would be nice if I could just be a kid for one day. But I still have to brave it all, whether I'm alone or not. I feel like a fool drowning my keyboard with my heavy salt-like tears here in the room but what more can I do? I have a fucked up attitude and this is me. Welcome to my life :)

Meeting Adelind on Wednesday. Hehe, so excited to see you baby! :D Thursday would most probably be a girls' night with Amy, Charmaine and Peony ^.^ Most probably meeting my darling Jeannie on Friday night! My little cheeky boy is turning two next Wednesday!! Hehehehe.

Yes, ~~I'm torn and stranded~~ I'll be fine. I'd move on eventually.

Forgiving Mistakes

2011-02-18T23:10:00.003+08:00

Just look at this little cheeky boy of mine. So mesmerizing! Hehehe. I'm in a foul mood right now so I guess this is going to be a long post filled with rubbish. Pardon me :) Yesterday turned out to be a good day. Heh! Got to admit that in my previous post, I was really infuriated. But a sweet boy became our middle person so I forgave after an apology! Hehehe. I'm not going to mention who these people are but I'm really glad that things turned out well! :D I don't wish to lose a good friend just like that either. If you're ever going to read this again... Don't feel bad ok! :) Remember. I said I'd forgive you! Which means I'd let go of your past sin and never use it against you honey :)

Because my brother-in-law didn't work yesterday, I met a pretty boy for dinner despite it being an impromptu date! Ha! Took a train back home at eleven then ko-ed not long after. Hehe. Woke up at 10 this morning and left home in the noon because I was accompanying this little buddy of mine! :) He was so elated while taking photos and couldn't stop laughing, at all! Tsktsk. Hahahahahahaha.

Did I mention? I'm most probably going to start on a baking class from 20th March! So excited. Hehehehe. Talked to JieJie about a lot of plans but yup. Talk is cheap! We still have to wait until next year to see how things go :) Daddy finally agreed to let me take up swimming! Teehee.

You can't make the same mistake twice. The second time you make it, it's no longer a mistake. It's a choice you chose to take. But as for you, it's the third time you're lying to me. Over the same thing. A mistake? Ha.. It's obviously deliberate. But it's okay because I've decided to let it all go. No memories are going to be kept :) Yes, you are disgusting. Downright disgusting. A liar, who never changes. Always so full of yourself. Things turned out this way because of your tone. You were never sorry. When I received your gift, I was really touched. It melted my heart. But today, I realized I was foolish. Plain stupid. A complete moron, for giving you my trust once more, only to find myself soaked with my heavy salt-like tears. On Valentine's, you already betrayed me.

I don't know if I am able to or not. But I'm going to put my heart and soul.......

Contented

2011-02-17T00:36:00.000+08:00

Today is the worse day ever. Never in my life has anyone cursed and swore at me. Tell me, in what ways do I not respect this friendship? Have I not given in enough? You have your ego, I have my pride. I knew you were unhappy. I kept quiet. You pushed it. Fuck you, right back. I need no friends like you. If you think I'm incapable of anything because I'm single. Sorry, you're wrong. I don't want things between us to turn out ugly. It's your loss, not mine. :)

Today is my sister's and brother-in-law's anniversary! Hehehe. And his birthday too!! :D But they couldn't go on a date due to a class my sister had to take at 7 :( But the class at 8 was for 2 little boys and one of them really made my day. Heehaw! :D

My Valentine's day was spent with my sister. We had dinner together and a great talk :) Hehehe. I'm most probably going to take up baking soon! Definitely by this year. So excited!!! Can't wait for next year to arrive. I really wish I could unfold what lies in the future right now! :x I want to learn how to swim too :( Yes, I'm a loser who can't swim nor cycle. I'm completely left out in my family. Sigh. I want to pick up a foreign language too! French or Japanese :P

Blog again soon! Xoxo.

628th Post

2011-02-14T01:35:00.002+08:00

Going to hit the sacks right after this post! Didn't manage to update my blog for the past few days because I was busy with the road show and as soon as I came back home, I laid on my bed feeling all reluctant to get my ass up again. Hehehe. Nevertheless, must thank some sweet pies who messaged me all the way just to help me kill time! Muahahaha. Keep eating and eating. Talk about diet? Nah, it never worked out. Never would either. Ha! It's okay, I'm sure I can still find my Prince Charming. In my dreams, at least. Hehehehe. Someone said I look like "neko" (cat) here -.-

Luckiest Child

2011-02-09T23:38:00.003+08:00

The plans I had for today were changed but everything still turned out well. Hehe! ^.^ So I woke up early this morning to prepare and after much hesitation, I decided to take a train to Dhoby so I can settle the class fees for JieJie :P Oh and there was some Lion Dance performance at Plaza Sing! The pole was pretty high and it caught my attention, hehe :/ Went to Swensens after settling the payment because Keith wanted to treat me breakfast! So sweet right!! Hahahaha. And that's not all okay! After that he accompanied me to Centrepoint, Orchard Central and also treated me to a cup of 贡茶! Hehehehe.

Waited for Rachel at the taxi stand and accompanied her to Yoshinoya for her Beef Bowl! :) Went to Swatch because she wanted to get her watches and Keith bought me one too! Same design but different colour. Sweet maximum right?!?!?! And I'm gonna get from Darl the "watch guard" so I'd have one too since she got them for free with the purchase of 2 watches! :P Lepak-ed for awhile then went separate ways with Keith :P Darl accompanied me back to FTP only to realize that she wouldn't be able to get in no matter what because of her coloured hair :( So sorry for the wasted trip!!

While I was walking to the basketball court from canteen, I saw............ KUMAR!!!!!! Was on cloud nine and caught up with him for a bit! :D Went to find Kim Yan at bball court for awhile before we went to canteen :) Talked quite a bit, tried to help her with D.C. Circuits, took a shot of Adam and her using my Polaroid ^.^ Jaslin came too and I tried to help her with Statics Electricity. I must admit that the Physics standard this year went up quite a little and I don't like the style of the notes :/ Many things have changed! :(

Took some photos with Kim Yan and talked till near five before Kumar came to join us :D Talked cock with him and boy do I miss those times we bickered too :( Got really sentimental during that moment. I miss so many people!! But I shall talk more about it later :P Left school at around 5.15 with Kim Yan and we went to pick Amber up ^.^ Hehehe. Took a bus back to her place aftermath and finally met her mother again! Teehee. As usual, joked with her mother and all then I went to the room :P Played with Amber, talked to KY and Eve :) Left their place at 7 odd and I actually left my wristlet there! :x I didn't notice it until Eve rang me up too :/ Dyin Yin met Kim Yan at Central then we walked over to OCK to wait for Eve to cycle over :)

Went to KFC for DY's dinner and bought Come Buy. No doubt, Come Buy wins Koi, hands down. Bought bread for Amber and Eve then we talked until 10 while DY and KY left first. That's all! :) Hehehehe. I really miss so many people from FTP!!! :( :( Miss fooling around with my darling Kumar!!! Best moments please. I miss Tan Yiming too! How long has it been since we last met!? :( Those times we used to meet during the holidays and all, I still remember everything! :) Though I just met Rachel Yong.... I STILL MISS YOU, DARLING! I miss so many of you! All of you gave me memories in FTP! My god... Three years, it passed by so quickly. We're all heading separate ways now :( That's not all that I miss. There's still so many more! It's going to be very long if I were to list down one by one but I believe you all know who you are! I said before, I'd choose to keep the better memories than live with memories of bad moments. And true enough, I miss all of you and love all of you! All the good times we've shared together.... You people are the ones who really know me well enough and accept me for who I am! I'm not perfect but you all compromised with me! :D None of us are perfect. We bitch around and all. But you all showed me how a friend should be! Despite all my flaws and bad moments we had, you all still remember me as a friend. Or maybe even good friends! ^.^

Rachel said I'm lucky. Really lucky. I can't help but admit too.. I've got nice cousins who really dote on me. They always give in to me. Just like today, I met Keith out of pure coincidence because he happened to be at PS too and I got free treats plus a watch too! My siblings are really loving. I have such nice good friends!!!!! I love all of you. Really!!

I came back with an injured ankle which is cut because I was playing with Siva. But well, it's okay because I managed to catch up with this darling boy of mine! Hehehehe. I'm gonna miss all the jokes we had :( I won't forget how I always use a metal ruler to smack his arm during Maths! And how I always distracted him when he was getting all focused during Maths lesson :P A lot of people said I've put on weight lorh :( Sian. Some said my face rounder!!! :( :( :( But Kim Yan said when I tie it up, it doesn't look round anymore. Maybe because my hair is shorter now? :P Yeh, MUST BE. HAHAHAHAHA. Too bad, I also wish I'm slim and all. But that's the genes that I got! So get your family lawyer to sue my parents if you want to. Muahahaha. Not like I want to have thunder thighs and be fat either :(

Hasty Post

2011-02-09T00:08:00.000+08:00

Date and time of this post is edited :) Hehe. So I slept till 10 am today. Quickly prepared and left home for Siglap. Left Siglap at six plus with Kelvin KorKor :) We went to eat dinner with JieJie as soon as we arrived at Simei because all of us were hungry. Closed shop at 8.30 and that's it. HA! :D Not going to open shop tomorrow because I'd be having a long day! :x

Going to meet the blur kid for breakfast at Toa Payoh then leave for Town together :) Meeting Rachel at Town to get my things done and buy her things. And of course, get a cup of awful 贡茶 too. Heh! Would be training back to TPY then rush to FTP immediately. Hope everything would go smoothly and I'd be able to meet my darling Kumar! :/ I'd also have to help Kim Yan and Jaslin with Physics. I hope there'd be enough time!

Roadshow

2011-02-08T00:50:00.005+08:00

Going to be a loner this Wednesday. Making a trip to Toa Payoh just to visit First Toa Payoh! Heheheheh :P Then go walk around town myself to check out some things :) This weekends would be a busy one because JieJie is going to have a roadshow, again! :D It'd be focusing on Valentine's theme and there would be special promotions! Hehehe. So drop by and have a look okay! You can also visit the blog to have a rough idea what it is going to be about :D

Do ask me questions on Formspring! Heheh :) Keep it rolling in, honey ^.^ Was texting Rachel today and she said that if you know me well enough, you'd realize that I'm nice to bully. -.-? Yes, I'm bitchy, fierce, unreasonable, selfish, unfriendly. But trust me. You just don't know me. You don't have any rights to judge :) And of course I'm bitchy. Who isn't? Life's a bitch and we're all fucked by life. So how are you going to deal with it? Why not get your family lawyer to sue me then? :)

OurCraftPlace ! :)

Birkenstock

2011-02-07T00:14:00.002+08:00

If you'd like to get Birkenstock, do let me know and I can get it at a much cheaper rate for you :) Yes, direct from UK and for every pair, I'd charge an extra $5 so I can make some money from it but of course, if you're going to get it in bulk, I'd lower the charges. As for how much cheaper it is, it really depends. It could be 20%, 40%, 50%, depending on the model and design. So why hesitate further? No harm trying your luck to see if you can get a genuine pair that's of a cheaper rate! :D

Shopping Spree

2011-02-06T20:52:00.003+08:00

Woke up as early as 8.30 in the morning today despite going to bed near 3 am in the morning. I have no idea why but I just jumped up from bed and couldn't sleep any longer :/ Watched some television shows to pass time and played with Keeven for awhile (: JieJie woke up at around ten plus so I went to prepare and after feeding Keeven it was already noon time so we left for Plaza Sing :D Bought 可口味 and 贡茶 as soon as we reached :D The drink JieJie bought sucked pretty much :/ Now I really wonder why can't people get enough of 贡茶 -.-

Walked around at PS and we bought an ointment for my skin irritation, shampoo and conditioner ^.^ Oh and JieJie got me 3 packets of Polaroid films too! Heheheh :B Walked over to Centre Point's Robinsons to search for some toys for Keeven but it was so small and there wasn't even anything for him ._. So we walked to Takashimaya in the end and bought 6 cars! (: Since there was an ongoing sales in Coach, we dropped by there first before we had our early dinner at some Japanese restaurant opposite Yoshinoya :) Bought a bag from Coach and it costs $244.50! Hehehe. I paid for it myself and I'm quite happy with it :) It is pretty casual and suitable for any occasion! Most importantly, feminine and JieJie agrees that it's a good buy. At least it's more of my age :P Was hesitating between LongChamp and Coach initially but decided to get the latter since the former is more omnipresent :P

Took a train back home after buying my Coach bag and yes I am a happy kid! ^.^ But I see my money flying away :( It's okay. I'd earn it back, next year! HAHA! JieJie would be starting up a clothes/fashion online business next year and she'd split half the profits with me :B So you must support, ok?! I promise it'd be of an affordable price and I'd try my best to bring in unique, eye-catching goods! :D Do keep a lookout for it ok ^.^

By the way, if you're interested in getting Birkenstock, let me know :) Via SMS/Facebook/Twitter/Formspring, your choice! :) My sister has her source and I've checked. For solid colours she can get about 20% discount while pattern designs like the flower one is 40% :D Of course, for every pair of slippers you get, I'd charge you $5 else I earn what!? There's no free lunch in this world, honey :P But of course there's always room for negotiation so do let me know if you have any intentions in getting it okay~

Lunar New Year

2011-02-05T15:03:00.003+08:00

Happy Chinese New Year! :D I know almost everybody did a post on the first day of Chinese New Year but due to time constraint and my old grandmother's body, I could afford to post only today :B How has your house visiting, collection of red packets and gambling luck have been of late? ^.^ For me, I visited less than 20 houses, collected quite a number of red packets and have not gambled at all! Ha! I think it's a good start for me because I did not play Black Jack at all :/ On the first day I went to different houses from 11.30 am until 10 pm at night. I didn't go to many houses but I stayed at each house for quite some time :( But some people said the pink romper I wore on that day suits me. That's a good thing and yes I was happy upon hearing it! Hehehe! I know it's nothing special but hey, it beats people telling me things like "Aiyo, why you wear this? It makes you look fat/ugly" and so on right? :P

I went to four places yesterday for visiting. Pathetic? I know right :( But it was really shocking because my mother's mahjong kaki's sister's grand-daughter was actually from IJ TPY Primary and we are acquainted! :D Yes, you have no idea how small the world is. And that's when I realized that there's actually so many people who are dying to get into JC! It's just my circle of friends and I who think that Polytechnic is good enough and would be a better choice. But I'm veering away from the story again.

We headed back to my grandparents' place around evening time. Talked to two of my Ah Yi and one of my cousin for awhile before JieJie and Kelvin KorKor came to pick me up :) Went to Suntec City for a walk. Hence, the reason why I didn't get the chance to play Black Jack :/ By the time I reached back home I was dead beat from walking with a pair of heels for the whole day so I showered and fell asleep on my bed not long later :D

Knocked out for twelve hours straight until this morning 10.30 am. Hehehe :P Ate my pineapple tarts and bak kwa just like the past few days then went to the newly opened Popeyes. Satisfying meal, filled with fats. I celebrated my Chinese New Year with Santa's tummy. No, I haven't got over Christmas yet :(

All my relatives said I've put on weight. I must start losing those visible fats! Be prepared because....... I may whine, complain and go on without stopping. But I'd never go on a diet because I can never resist my delicious food plus I'm always out for good food and........ Exercising is definitely out of my league. No second thoughts! The thought of going out for a jog just kills me and knocks my mind out instantly. Teehee.

So back to where I was earlier, regarding Polytechnic and JC. I don't think it's embarrassing to enter the former and not the latter. Firstly, my points didn't allow me to enter JC but that doesn't mean I'm not intelligent enough okay. You can think that I'm fucking thick skinned but I'd still say. I HAVE the brains, I just lack that determination and perseverance. I CHOSE to not work hard for it. Just look at the attitude I had towards school and when O's were around the corner. Do you see me reading storybooks to enhance my language? Do you see me submitting assignment on time? Do you see me putting my words into action? If you have no idea about it, let me tell you the answer. I did none of the above :D I wouldn't be able to handle the stress nor do I want to take the risk. I have been lucky for the past sixteen, going seventeen years of my life but that doesn't give me the rights to presume that the same thing will happen every time.

Bak Kut Teh soup for dinner tonight, hehe. My favourite! ^.^ I can be very thick-skinned but just so you know, I was stating the facts. In life, there's things that we can never deny. Nevertheless, I don't go around boasting either. It just depends on how you see things. I'm not trying to be arrogant, definitely. I'm stating MY point of view :) You have your ways of seeing things, I have mine too :D Sorry if my tone was wrong but I just said it in a jokingly manner~

Love, the way it's meant to be

2011-02-01T23:39:00.003+08:00

I finally met up with my girl today after so long! Muahahaha. I sound so corny here today but it's okay. It's a feeling that comes once in a blue moon! ^^ Instead of meeting at one today, we met at four instead because I accompanied Kelvin KorKor to wash the car before picking JieJie up :D We were very late and JieJie was angry so we had lunch at Tampines Central CC ^.^ Their fried fish slice bee hoon soup is damn good! Must try!! :P Drove down to Siglap after our meal then I took a bus to DG from there to meet Rachel :)

Walked to Sasa for my masks then off to get a cup of Gong Cha because everybody has been raving about how good it is and Darl's mum said it's good too! :) From there, we walked all the way to Bugis Street and caught up with each other ^.^ We can never chat enough seriously. Countless of different topics! We walked around Level One and Two of BS for at least five times, individually, before we went to Iluma because I needed the toilet. Went over to Junction so I could get my things from Watsons then we went back to BS for another round of aimless walks. Gave up and headed back to BJ in search of our clothes but we still couldn't find any. Saw some simple tops at Cotton On which caught my eyes but I decided to drop by again after CNY to get them :) Shall pull JieJie along if I can, for opinions! Hehehe. Settled our dinner at our all time favourite place: Yoshinoya! Hehehe beef bowl + beef soup = our love ^.^ Nua-ed for more than 30 minutes then we walked to the train station to take a train home! Hehehe.

Simple day today but I was emo-ing during my journey to DG :( No, it wasn't because of the usual love stuff. Instead, it's because I felt so grateful to my JieJie and brother-in-law that I wanted to tear so much! They are like my parents and they worry for me all the time! They worry that I'd not have my proper meals, they don't want me to worry about my fees, they just want me to put in my best in my studies, they worry any mishap would happen to me, they worry that I wouldn't have enough money to go out. As I grow older, everything changes. I can no longer behave like a small kid, wanting a hug from them when I cry. It just feels so awkward to hug them and say "I love you!" :( I doubt they'd read this post now but honestly. I love you, JieJie and Kelvin KorKor!!! Thank you so much!!! I wouldn't be so fortunate without the both of you. I'd never know how much warmth can family love bring to you and the wonders of love from your own family!

Talked to Rachel today and although we knew each other only in 2008, but I believe there's fate between us. We've had many misunderstandings before and miscommunication, be it in the same class or not. But hey, we still ended up being together :) I believe it's just me because there's always a misunderstanding before I get close to someone and they become someone important in my life. Most of the time. Hehehe. But I'm sure they love me for who I am, right? :P I'm not perfect but I'm sure your perception would change if you do know me :/ I dare not assure that my friendship with everyone would be perfect throughout. There's bound to be some things which would ruin it all. But we all grow and as we move on, we see things differently. I'm sure fate would bring us all back together again. Heh. I really thank my sweet pies around me! Not in any order but.... Rachel, Yiming, Jeannie, Si Hwee, Peony, Charmaine, Amy, Adelind! I know with these girls around I can always speak my mind freely and not hide anything at all! :D Of course there's some other people too who'd occasionally notice me and those that I'd still want to thank for dropping by in my life or hope things would turn out to be better for them and I! People like Zoe, Rachel, Kim Yan, Eve, Nicky!

To sum it all up..... We're all moving on and to different paths now. We're all going to meet the different types of people in our lives. We're all going to experience a whole new series of events life is going to give us. But I hope things would somehow get better and we'd still remember each other at the end of the day. Those close to me should know my memory. I'd never forget you, I promise. We can share bad moments together but I'd always remember the good times we had. That's the thing that would make me fight for the friendship, speak up, and clear the air :)

Just to digress. I think I look cute in the picture on top so I decided to post it. HA HA HA TOO BAD, you can beg to differ but I still have the final say :) Yes I'm thick skinned like a Rhino :D Yes, Rhino not Elephant. Elephant's skin damn thin please! Read more Reader's Digest okay ^.^

Oh yes and Darling, hungry must eat okay! HAHAHAHA you are hotz enough already no need dietz one :) Supper soonz! I love you too! Girls like you make me want to be les. So hot, how to reject? HAHAHAHAHA! Okay enough of fun-time now. I was just kidding I only get attracted to human with a dick :)

CNY Preparation

2011-01-27T01:32:00.002+08:00

I left out one very important thing in my previous post so I decided to publish a new post ;) HAHAHA. We went to Giant before heading back home to get curtains and also buy Maggie! We actually bought 5 packets of Maggie. Muahahahahaha! And if you have yet to realize, we actually have 3 proper meals every day. We'd always have dinner before heading back home. Which means, we basically don't need Maggie at all. But well, it's always good to play safe and supper is irresistable! Hehehehehe!

Fourteen Years

2011-01-26T23:42:00.003+08:00

I woke up with messages from 8 different people and one from MOE regarding my posting results (: Hehehe. I woke up at 7.30 am feeling lazy to read my messages so I went back to sleep until 9 am only to realize that I received my posting results at 6.49 am -.- Yes, I got posted to TP! Which is a wish come true because.... FOR THREE DAMNED YEARS, I NEED NOT TRAVEL FAR. MUAHAHAHA. But I didn't get into Digital Forensics which I was really yearning for. It's the only course out of the whole list of abc courses which caught my eye. Then again... Who can I blame? I didn't want to work hard so my points was just an average 16. How would I ever be able to fight for vacancies with those who did well? Nevertheless, I'm still pretty contented :) I guess this 2010 O level candidates made a miracles and gave a shock to many. NP is now the first while SP is second. Can you believe it, International Business JAE COP for 2011 is actually 6 points!? Seems like this cohort detests JC? :P

Ended up not opening the shop at Siglap today so after having breakfast, Kelvin KorKor and I went to Peninsula to shop :) None of the shoes caught my eyes and since there's still time, I didn't get any shoes on impulse :D Went to Funan and walked around, searching high and low for the Fujifilm Instax camera! Bought food and drinks from Mc Donalds before continuing the search. Our last resort was to head back to Peninsula to search for it. After much time wasted, we finally find a shop selling Instax 7s and 25! :D Compared both of the instant cameras and bought Mini 25 in the end ^^ It's rather costly but I still managed to get it as my birthday present :/ Went to pick JieJie up from school then we headed to Expo for Texas Chicken! :) Back to Simei to open shop aftermath and homed. Hehehe.

Really happy because I've been wanting a Polaroid since 3 years back and I finally got one! :B What's more, I asked for it, only today and I had it immediately despite the price!.. While on the way to Peninsula, my brother-in-law asked me what I'd like for my birthday and he searched for it today! Can't deny, I'm really fortunate. No, I don't have a perfect family neither do I have parents who dote on me. But I have a sister and brother in law who gives me everything I want. I just have to ask for it and voila, I'd get it. Just like this camera. They never thought about getting a second-hand or looking around to look for a cheaper one for me. And despite the huge difference in price, they'd rather pay for the more expensive one. Just like this Mini 25. It's less bulkier by A LOT, it's auto and has 2 ways to snap pictures!

I actually have all sorts of camera now. Peony has my digital camera with LCD in front. Today, my brother in law offered me his Canon EOS 450D! Hehehe :P He didn't give it to me but I'm allowed to use it if I want to! (x It's been here for 3 years already and he hardly uses it :P Now, I have an instant camera too! Muahahaha :D

"God is fair. You got to lose some, in order to gain."

What I gained is a sister and brother in law who dotes on me so much. They have been together for fourteen years! Fourteen years may not be that long to you but hey, my brother in law watched me grow up. He's with me sister since I was THREE! Indeed, he knows me better than anyone else too, apart from my sister.